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Went to the doctor today...
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Well, I woke up first thing this morning with an asthma attack... inhaler wasn't quite enough, got it just under control enough to make it to the bathroom and start a hot shower, had to let the steam clear up my lungs... really tempted on asking for a nebulizer after that... cuz both asthma attacks I...
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Feeling Protected
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Our task is not a naive one of feeling safe, of living and loving in a utopian world. One woman commented that our task is making ourselves feel safe while learning to live and love in a world that is unsafe. We do not want to dwell on the danger for that gives power to the negative. Neither do we want to ignor...
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I Can't Do it Alone
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Hi Everyone, my name is Kirsten and I am an alcoholic. AA saved my life in 1992 from total destruction. I attended meetings daily and was very involved. I WAS WILLING TO GO TO ANY LENGTHS. When I returned to the West Coast in 1999 I stopped going. I managed to stay sober of my own volition until June of this y...
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Death wish....phone call......wake up call.
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Saturday was like any other day, I went to work at 4am, got off around 10am, came home took a nap.Got woken up by a phone call from a friend I hadn't heard from in quite a long time, old drinking buddy. She didn't know I was in AA.......We were going to the mall. She showed up and she'd been drinking, next thi...
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Daily Reflections 9/25
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FIRST THINGS FIRST Some of us have taken very hard knocks to learn this truth: Job or no job -- wife or no wife -- we simply do not stop drinking so long as we place dependence upon other people ahead of dependence on God. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 98 Before coming to A.A., I always had excuses for taking a dr...
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Peace with the Past
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Even God cannot change the past. -- Agathon Holding on to the past, either through guilt, longing, denial, or resentment, is a waste of valuable energy - energy that can be used to transform today and tomorrow. "I used to live in my past," said one recovering woman. "I was either tryin...
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Tolerance
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Practice tolerance. Tolerate our quirks, our feelings, our reactions, our peculiarities, and our humanness. Tolerate our ups and downs, our resistance to change, and our struggling and sometimes awkward nature. Tolerate our fears, our mistakes, our natural tendency to duck from problems, and...
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Attitude of Gratitude
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Good Morning to each and every one of you!! Down under, on this Monday morning at 10:17am the sun is bringing a lot of warmth, light and beauty to us Australian's. Yesterday, as in Sunday, I met up with some of my non-alcoholic friends for some coffee, cake and a chat....most enjoyable to hang...
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I'm insane! :(
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I just got home from the ER a couple of hours ago.... my asthma's been worse all year, starting last winter when my exhusband and I were splitting up, I was smoking a LOT then, 3 packs a day, about killed myself with it, was waking up between 4 and 6 every morning with bad coughing fits for about a month, had a...
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Conscious Brilliance
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The birth of autumn is an event missed by many. Autumn reveals itself slowly, hovering on the edges of our consciousness until its crisp breezes are strong enough to pierce our summer clothing, and we notice for the first time the transformations taking place all around us. It is only when the last fru...
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Allowing Ourselves to be Needy
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We can accept ourselves as people who have needs - the need for comfort, love, understanding, friendship, and healthy touch. We need positive reinforcement, someone to listen to us, someone to give to us. We are not weak for needing these things. These needs make us human and healthy. Getting our nee...
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Spontaneity
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In recovery, we're learning to let ourselves go! We're learning to be spontaneous. Spontaneity may frighten some of us. We may be afraid of the loss of control involved with spontaneity. We may still be operating under the codependent rules that prohibit spontaneity: be good; be right; be perfect;...
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30 days of soberiety
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Yesterday I completed 30 days...My group celebrated my birthday and gave me a token, a key ring with message of AA inscribed.It was a touching moment for me.Not that I had not lived without alcohol for this long before.5 months back I had completed 45 days on my own...That was a time when I had become dis...
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Love Your Shadows
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"There is that part of ourselves that feels ugly, deformed, unacceptable. That part, above all, we must learn to cherish, embrace, and call by name."-- Macrina WiederkehrEach of us has characteristics we define as good and those we define as bad. The parts of ourselves that we continual...
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I want to Live
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Hi There ! Iam Nisha, 30 years old. I am a recovering alcoholic.I live in a city in india which is not very open to the idea of women alcoholics. Last year I realised that I need HELP....I remembered AA from some article in newspaper, I surfed teh net to see if there is any group in my city.....I landed up in a...
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what do I do?
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First of all, I want to thank those who responded to my last post. I found the advice and encouragement tremendously helpful. I would have had 10.5 weeks had I not slipped on Monday. But since I did, I only have 3 days. I have made the decision to just pick myself back up and try again...paying closer a...
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DANG ARE YOU GUYS SMART...AND GREAT
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Well, the big dreaded "meeting" is over. Thank you St pete, tender, simple, doll and quetzal!! Your advice and prayers helped me thru!!! Alot of GOD too!!! Well. I was totally freaked out all day but kept busy and acted like no big deal going on here!! I said the serenity prayer(love that!!,...
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Trusting Ourselves
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Many of us believed that heeding the words of God or our Higher Power meant following rigid rules, an instruction booklet for life. Many of us now believe differently. The rigid rules, the endless instructions, the exhortation to perfection, are not the words our Higher Power whispers. The words of...
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Weight of the Past
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Regret Holding onto regret is like dragging the weight of the past with us everywhere we go. It drains our energy, leaving less available for life in the present because we are constantly feeding an old issue. This attachment can cause illness the same way watering a dead plant creates decay. We know t...
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Daily Reflections 9/22
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A "LIMITLESS LODE" Like a gaunt prospector, belt drawn in over the last ounce of food, our pick struck gold. Joy at our release from a lifetime of frustration knew no bounds. Father feels he has struck something better than gold. For a time he may try to hug the new treasure to himself. He may n...
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Letting Go of Urgency
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One thing at a time. That's all we have to do. Not two things at once, but one thing done in peace. One task at a time. One feeling at a time. One day at a time. One problem at a time. One step at a time. One pleasure at a time. Relax. Let go of urgency. Begin calmly now. Take one thing at a time. See how everything w...
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Mandatory down-time.
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So I don't know if anyone would remember but way back in 2000 when I was in a stupid plane incident not only did my life take a few twists (shortly after the stupid plane incident) but my knee got pretty torked. My knee was threadbare from several dislocations that were the result of over rotations kickbo...
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Making Space for Change
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We want certain things to change in our lives, but we fear changes that we don't want. Sometimes we fear changes that we do want, because the familiar is more comfortable than the visionary, and because life is a three-dimensional, interconnected puzzle; if you change one thing, everything else shi...
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New Relationship Behaviors
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We talk much about new relationship behaviors in recovery: allowing others to be themselves without over reacting and taking it personally, and owning our power to take care of ourselves. We talk about letting go of our need to control, focusing on self-responsibility, and not setting ourselves u...
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Daily Reflections 9/21
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THE LAST PROMISE We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 84 The last Promise in the Big Book came true for me on the very first day of sobriety. God kept me sober that day, and on every other day I allowed Him to operate in my life. He gives...
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Thank you everyone.
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Just want to say thanks to everyone who replied to my post 6 months sober and struggling. Everything you lot said has helped. I feel great seem to have got through the rough patch without picking up!! Had a really good week my son has started school all day and my daughter is in nursery so I have some time to...
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Rambling...
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A good portion of my life I was a pretty good guy. I worked too much- and the funny thing is I paid the bills and thats about it. I had a wife and we had a daughter, we went on vacation now and then- camping in the desert or Disneyland or up the coast to Canada- mundane vacations that break up the monotony of life...
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Feeling RAW
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Well as usual, I am going to complain about work!! I think that messes w/ my sobriety more than anything!!I dont even know where to begin...Anyways, we're having a nursing meeting on Friday.. Comments Ive heard is "feelings are going to be hurt", "oh it will def be a bitch session&quo...
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Just saying "Hi" to everyone....and the new people too..
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Blaming others for the pain we feel each time someone fails to live up to our expectations is no different than burning our tongue on coffee that's too hot to swallow, and then calling our cup an idiot! - Guy Finley Unfulfilled expectations always cause problems. Having expectations in our culture is...
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Starving
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I am going on my 8th day sober today and recently I have just been starving all the time. No matter what I eat I don't feel full. I was wondering if this is a normal physical reaction or am I mentally comensating for the loss of alcohol intake? I was told about the craving of sugar, how alcohol turns to sugar a...
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Just wanted to elaborate on what I said earlier I need to emphasise that I have a problem with revealing my real self because I HAVE NO IDEA whom I am!!! Also if this relates to anyone ??I am scared of getting OLD I am 38 and as a woman I feel like a failure!!!!!! I just compare myself to everyone else then so...
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Daily Reflections 9/20
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H.P. AS GUIDE See to it that your relationship with Him is right, and great events will come to pass for you and countless others. This is the Great Fact for us. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 164 Having a right relationship with God seemed to be an impossible order. My chaotic past had left me filled with guil...
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Keeping Myself Busy
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Hello I am a newcomer on here however not new to AA. I have been struggling lately but i have been doing things to keep my mind busy and this is what i came up with. I have created some desktops let me know what you think. Clicky Click Clicky Click Hope you all do well, one day at a time. atr232000
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Apologies
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Sometimes, we act in a manner with which we are less than comfortable. That's human. That's why we have the words: "I'm sorry." They heal and bridge the gap. But we don't have to say, "I'm sorry" if we didn't do anything wrong. A sense of shame can keep us apologizing for everythin...
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Slipped again...
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I was 10 weeks sober last night when I instictively just grabbed the bottle and made a drink. I didn't pause to contimplate the consequences, nor did I reason or rationalize it. I just did it...and then of course immediately following, felt tremendous guilt. I just couldn't believe that it happen...
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It's bad
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I'm sorry my Friend, that's inappropriate for this board, but do come back and share your ES&H with us any time. Chris -- Edited by Wren at 02:34, 2007-09-19
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I went to court today.
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Long story. Bench Warrant. Stupid dogs and their tickets (that were lost on my desk and I missed my court date) anyhow! Funny thing is- and I'm only a "G" so I only sat through about six or eoght cases before my own came up (after lunch)- but pretty much everyone there was dealing with the repre...
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Never Give Up
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When things go wrong, as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all up hill, When the funds are low, and the debts are high, And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit, Rest if you must, but don't you quit. Life is queer with it's twists and turns, As eve...
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Daily Reflections 9/18
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ACCEPTANCE We admitted we couldn't lick alcohol with our own remaining resources, and so we accepted the further fact that dependence upon a Higher Power (if only our A.A. group) could do this hitherto impossible job. The moment we were able to accept these facts fully, our release from the alcohol c...
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It is with sadness..
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That after many many days, of being a part of this great AA message board fellowship... I find it necessary to step aside....re the position of a moderator, because of health issues. I will continue...as long as possible..to contribute... The people that have shared this board...have saved this ki...
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Letting the Good Stuff Happen
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Before recovery, my relationships were lousy. I didn't do very well on my job. I was enmeshed in my dysfunctional family. But at least I knew what to expect! -- Anonymous I want the second half of my life to be as good as the first half was miserable. Sometimes, I'm afraid it won't be. Sometimes, I'm frigh...
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Feeling vulnerable
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What else is sobriety but to feel vulnerable? Well, that's what I am feeling right now. Life is happening, and I'm showing up. I have had some amazing changes in my life in the last six months and they are wonderful. Still, I am feeling more feeble and afraid than normal (which I know, is to be expecte...
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daily life without a drink
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How many stores do we pass on the way to work that we used to stop at to buy our fix? I can count at least 5 (regular stops). It is like my car is pre-programmed to pull in to that store. But now, I just keep driving to my destination.
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Checking In
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Hey family. My sponsor has suggested I start writing stuff down/journaling. This was my favorite place to write. Kind of like home. I just went to this A.A. event in Chicago at the Pavillion. Thousands of people just like me and two truly wonderful speakers. Great experience. To hear the serenity pra...
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Feeling lost and alone.......and pathetic!
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As most of you know, after a very LTR, John and I parted 2 weeks ago...I've discovered I have NO friends and nothing to do....I go to work and come home. My phone doesn't ring. I don't even have anyone to call (unless it's AA related). I'm feeling pretty pathetic right now - UGH! Mostly because I've come t...
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gossip hurts
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A man was seen coming and going from a married woman's house. Her neighbor watched with fascination, and concocted elaborate tales which she shared with her friends as truth. There was no evidence any more incriminating that the fact that the young man came regularly, but the rumor was that the wo...
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Shopping
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Yesterday I made my 1st trip to the grocery store since I have decided to get sober. I was terrified of having to go in. In hindsight I shoud have taken a friend with me but I am happy to say that I didn't let temptation take over. I walked right past the lliquor and wine section without a pause. I knew this was...
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Daily Reflections 9/17
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FREEDOM FROM FEAR When, with God's help, we calmly accepted our lot, then we found we could live at peace with ourselves and show others who still suffered the same fears that they could get over them, too. We found that freedom from fear was more important than freedom from want. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELV...
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Revenge
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No matter how long we've been recovering, no matter how solid our spiritual ground, we may still feel an overwhelming desire at times to punish, or get even, with another person. We want revenge. We want to see the other person hurt the way he or she has hurt us. We want to see life deal that person just rew...
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Allowing Others to walk their paths
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Watching a loved one or a peer traverse a path littered with stumbling blocks can be immensely painful. We instinctively want to guide them toward a safer track and share with them the wisdom we have acquired through experience. Yet all human beings have the right to carve their own paths without bein...
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