I have always heard this statement. And, I recently hear it from my boyfriend. Because, I was taking and using my past against us in our relationship. This week-end past. His sponsor took him and his sponsees to Vegas. Boy, that was a good one. I did not know how to react and of course I became enraged because I planned the week-end without him knowing what was being planned. I like doing the surprise thing.
He did not want to tell me where he was going after he was on the road, because he knew my reaction would have been in the mode of jealousy and accusing mode. So, he chose not to call. Well, I called him. Pissed to the gills. He did his usual thing said his peace and due to my attitude walked away from the conversation. I did not see what his sponsor was up too. Its the old man warrior thing. 8 sober men going to Vegas 8 coming back without a causality. I am praying for that. However, I at the time did not see the blessing in this and was angry because I spent money we did not have for our week-end. That is no longer here or there.
The beauty of this week-end was this. Him leaving gave me a chance to discovery what he was saying about letting go of my past. Because, I was jeordizing us. By the way I talked to him and others for that matter. So, I sat down with the BB and the sex inventory and worked. Man what a release. I found stuff that stemmed back to even my sister. The jealousy and resentment. The pain and illusions I still lived with. Which, has helped me to loose a lot of great people in my life. I am just thankful to his sponsor. Because, if he was still here. I would not have done this. And, I know in the long run. Lose one of my gifts of recovery.
This program works if you are willing to work on you, stop the blaming and see your truth. And, I am working on mine. Thanks for letting me share.
Thanks for sharing that great story. I can relate to that. I'm glad it turned out well. You helped it turn out well by making the best of your situation.
"This program works if you are willing to work on you, stop the blaming and see your truth. And, I am working on mine."
yep. I've found that to be true, and very important.
love in recovery,
amanda
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Excellent Melissa, showing growth that way. There are so many things we can just lose it over, but in the course of having faith in our HigherPower, there are such an abundance of things that we face each day that can be turned into something good when we reach out for the lesson. I'm hoping that there will be a day when I can automatically turn things over to my God, rather than spend the energy I spend fussing over them. I have learned that ultimately, I do it anyway, so I'm looking forward to the day I do it before I beat something to death. One day at a time, one situation at a time on some days. Happy New Year, Chris
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