i don't technically have the apartment...the landlord told me i could put down 50 dollars to keep it, which i gave 40...now she says i need 1/2 of the rent, and she is going through other applicants references...
to give her another day
my heart has sunk a little today
because i am in a transition house for women i am running out of time, we are only allowed a month or so there and my time is going over that if i stay till the 1st of january as it is.
i so thought i had it!!
i need it, i want it...but all is in our HP's hands
i know there are other apartments, i have wreckage from my past( what alkie/addict doesn't, i know...), in that i owe all my utilities a large sum of monies and power alone refuses to hook me up without first paying my bill....
anyways, i don't mean to whaa about it..ya know,,,the poor me thing...
i just really want ...and need...a pjlace to call my own that is affordable and locationable, which this one is sooo all of the above.
i know i've asked for prayers
please...
one more
god bless and thankyou
i feel sad today, lonely, lost...even though things are great in my life for early recovery, its all the reasons i used to use to use, that dang escape. Went to a big book study today at noon, couldn't get up the nerve to ask for a temp sponsor...i don't know, its like my emotions, my feelings are one step behind me...like i feel them after the fact, not sure how to explain it...kind of like i don't feel them when i have them...make'n any sense??? i'll go to another meeting tonight for sure, and practicing my breathing in ...and breathing out...and not picking up that drink in between there
