Well yesterday, I did see someone about a huge knot-like block that was inside, needed to get professional help, face to face, about my relationship with my incarcerated Son.
Went there, poured out my heart, and talked about the block, and then I listened, really listened for an answer, was Praying for some help with this, it was just sitting there inside, like a big knot inside my heart, and Praying all the time, helped, but the block remained. This person I had seen before, knew the situation, and when I just poured out my feelings, and the need to have some help, professional help with this, wow, did that person deliver.
I felt about 20 pounds lighter driving home, and then the afternoon, was so incredible, was so aware of being released from something that was holding me back, (part of the Aramaic Translation of a line from the Lord's Prayer, "Release Us from What holds us back").
Just wanted to share this with you. I kept stalling, cause I felt I had to do this alone, had the tools of this Program, have my meetings, and my Prayers, and just kept asking and Praying. Then, I said, ok, make an appointment, at least give it a try, nothing to lose, only possibly something to gain.
Now being unblocked, I can talk about it, write about it, and that is just what I needed so badly, some of us have outside issues, and no matter how long it has been, since going for that help, if the same problem comes back to haunt us, well, then we do need to do what we did in the first place, and that is to say, I need help. and then Go get it.
Don't know really why I am posting this, just wanted to share some internal stuff, and this is a good place to do that. Thanks for reading.
Glad you were able to reach out and work through some of those blocks, toni. I was so blessed to be working at an in house residential treatment center when my daughter was sent to prison. There I had trained professionals to support me and offer guidance as I learned how to deal with it while releasing some of the guilt that comes with it all. Alone, I wouldn't have been able to do anything but go into denial and just shove it back inside. For me, that is disasterous. Hope this mending process helps you to feel better, Chris
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Blocking is a lot like stuffing our emotions....just plain not good. I'm glad you were able to get help and get through this.
You can also have joy in knowing that your growth in this area can make you even more of a help to others you may encounter in you journey who may be going through a similar trial.
