I have been popping on, but have not posted. There has been a lot going on.
I had a health scare, that kept my mind really occupied. All is well now.
My classes are keeping me busy. I have completed one class and my term paper for Chemical Dependency 101 is due on Thursday. I didn't get to go the direction that I wanted to, but I think HP had a hand in that. My paper is on the History of Marijuana and the long term and short term affects. I think this is funny, because I have serious resentment issues with this Marijuana. I mean serious, it came up in working my 4th step. The simpiliest way to expalin it, is that Marijuana is like the other woman. His other lover. So I think getting to know the "enemy" better is helping me to let go the resentments.
And hubby has been gone for a while, he took a job crabbing in Alaska. But will be returning far sooner than expected.
You all are in my prayers, and the recovery here is strong.
It's good to see you posting again. I'm sorry that you had that health scare, but it was good to read that all is well for you now. Take care of yourself, won't you?
I really loved how you described Marijuana being the “other lover”. You described exactly how it was for me and my alcoholism. I was talking to my boyfriend last night about how bad my final weeks/months of drinking were and he couldn't understand what I was saying to him, not being an alcoholic. I am going to use your analogy when we carry on talking later today. Thank you for that.
I hope that you and your hubby will soon be reunited.
Have a super Sunday.
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
I am glad that my analogy helped you. I know it has helped me when my hubby and I talk about addictions I have used that with him to help him better understand my hurt in a way were I am not coming out and attacking him. I try to stick to feelings, my feelings and not saying "you did this, and you did that." Besides, he isn't the only one with choices in the relationship. But I asked him he would feel if I startd spending all my time with another man, and if I wasn't with that other man I would spen all my time obsessing on when the next time I got to be with him was, or spending all my time looking for this other man, or how he would feel if he walked in and saw me getting intimate with the other guy. When my hubby uses other drugs, he isn't around the house (meth, opiates, acid, whatever), alcohol it depends on the what he was drinking and the mood he is in if he stays or goes (when he is angry he goes to a buddies house), but the pot, he is here and it is in my face. But I also know that I have allowed myself to become jealous of and trying to complete with a plant, well actually the affects of the plant.
LOL I better stop, because I could keep going.
Phil,
Well maybe she just wasn't ready for the commitment, I mean come on you just meet her and already you want to move into her space? Or maybe she is wondering why you haven't ever written to her, because the goons won't pass on your letters.
LOL, anyway thanks for the giggle.
I love the word serenity, and I try to surround myself with symbols that will help me to remember how priceless serenity is to me. When I first started really thinking about serenity, a dolphin came to mind, and there came my nick.
I hope the memories of your lost gal weren't too painful
