ive decided after much thought to sell my business and move on to something new.ive been thinking that life and the way i look at it has changed.For the first year or two it was all about make up for lost time,prove to every one that i was back on top,work,work work,money money money.I think ive had to have these material things to prove to myself that you cant fill a spirtual hole with a material object.Things close to my heart now are nothing like what they were, now a walk with my dogs and my wife in the country takes me to a place that no material object can,today i truly know inner peace and do you know what.......i have no fear...what will be will be.Just when i thought i would be crippled with fear, there is none.I truly believe that god is doing for me what i could not do for myself......remove fear..just for today.I guess all my life ive been trying to prove to everyone that im worthwhile person,hitting the bottle when i cant cope.............and what am i gonna do?.............just be a truck driver just like i wanted to be when i was a kid and i cant wait.I dont know if all this makes sense to you all but it does to me.took me 6 and a half years sober to realize i can be what ever i want to be..........god be with you all
All the power to you!!!!!!! I know it takes guts to start over and do what your heart calls for. Go for it. If you've weighed the pros and cons and you know your path is lit up like a christmas tree just follow and go. I just did that in August. I had to trust in my Higher Power and find a great deal of trust. So, to keep it short, I'm living in a strange city, back in college, meeting new people and LOVING SCHOOL so much that I sometimes need to pinch myself.
I really hope you follow your heart. What is that saying on my 25 hour coin "To Thine Own Self Be True"
You take care,
Jo-Anne
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I granted myself the gift of sobriety and found my spirit.
