I went to see my doctor a few weeks ago and he gave me a referral to see this surgeon. Finally got up enough courage last week and went to see him. I'm going to go in for some minor out-patient surgery in a lil over 2 weeks. When I was talking to the doc. last week, he was explaining what's going to happen. Scared the crap outta me! I had a knot in my stomach and felt sick from visualizing this stuff. You want to know what my first thought was? I'll tell ya. It was the drink! Never fails. Get in a tight, stressful spot, with a lot of fear, and blam, the drink shows up! Oh well, I didn't act on it! In my mind the worst is over. The good thing about it is that I will have a week off of work! Wooooooohoooooooooo!
On a different note, The Chicago Bears play tonight. Today, in my sobriety, I am grateful for........................MONDAY NIGHT FOOTBALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL....... If you don't know, the Bears are kicking some major butt this year and are currently undefeated! Possibly the best team in football? Who knows? If there are any Cardinal fans out there, my deepest apoology for this ass whooping that's about to commence!
I'm in a wonderful mood. Isn't it wonderful to enjoy life sober?
I had similar troubles when I lived in Houston and broke my back. I went to a chiropracter and was referred to a neurosurgeon. So maybe I could share my experience, strength, and hope in succesfully dealing with the matter.
I moved to Arkansas and stopped seeing chiropractors.
I can share experience strength and no hope...with that one...3 nurses holding me down...the doctor was old...and today my voice is higher than most men...
So between Ryan and I we have 2 topics covered...:) Is there more..??? lol
Switchin on the NFL....and checkin out the point spread....
Have a good night guys...
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I really do hope that all will go well for you. I can so understand your thoughts turning to drink. I had to have a lump removed back in February and all I could think about was alcohol. But, well done on not taking that drink.
I hope that The Chicago Bears carried on kicking major butt last night (sorry, but I'm a UK heathen and don't follow it!).
Take care and let us know how it goes for you, won't you?
Carol
-- Edited by Quetzal at 05:52, 2006-10-17
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Hi my friend, hoping that everything is going to be ok for you, and that old flight of fight, well good recall of how when anything at all went wrong, and something would scare me, ever just a little, my Alke response was always, not to stay and fight, just have a drink, or 10 and leave, (flight part) Well that never ever worked, because when I was through Flying, the same details were always there waiting for me to deal with them.
That response of "Well a drink will fix this", the good news is that that old familiar response does not stick around for too long.
Thanks everyone. All day today I just kept thinking about the game last night. The Bears really played awfully. My Super Bowl hopes have been crushed!
That's not really important though. Not when it comes to sobriety. Life is good today. I keep getting these urges to go spend money. A new monitor(flatscreen) and a Bears jersey are at the top of my list. I don't remember the last time I blew a whole paycheck on something other than drugs and liquor! Imagine that!
It seems that when I've gotten sober in the past that I save money and never enjoy anything with it. I guess I need to find some healthy ways to spend money. If you looked at my budget now you would wonder (what the heck does this guy do for fun?) Save, save, save! That's no fun! Maybe a couple hands of blackjack on the boat would be fun............Yeah right! That was a joke by the way!
Hey you! I just talked to Phil, and he told me that in the last three minutes! You won 24/23! Smile now. That's quite a jump! Watched the Seahawks do something similar on Sunday. Just one of those last minute, literally, things. Course, a minute in football is like forty minutes in real time.
And if I get a real urge to spend? I do. For way too long I thought I didn't deserve to spend on myself, and I still go thru the "omg, that's like, six gallons of milk for the kids if I spend that on a blouse". I quit doing that. It's okay to be good to yourself......hugs chris
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