Headed over to my mom's tonight when hubby gets home, then we're leaving tomorrow around noon to go out to Petit Jean Arkansas State Park until Tuesday! I'm excited but nervous... should be a good way to relax after everything that's been going on... tons of hiking trails, you can hear the waterfalls from the cabins... I'm really not an outdoorsy/nature kind of person at all, but I love going there... and as my sponsor said, maybe I'll enjoy the nature and the beauty of it all more now that I'm sober...

I'm nervous though, I'll be missing basically a week of meetings, actually over a week of meetings, I've had to miss them the last two nights... I've talked to my sponsor about this, she told me take my big book so I can read, and I have bookwork to do on There is a Solution and will work on that this weekend. I don't know if my phone works out there, I can't remember. So I don't know if I'll be calling anyone... and I thought about it, my stepdad will more than likely take beer... but then again he counts his beer and doesn't share so that shouldn't be a big problem... But I'll have my big book if it starts eating at me.

Not sure if I'm totally taking a break from the counseling stuff this weekend, I know all this will still be on my mind some, so I'm taking one of my workbooks, the easier one that's not so overwhelming and doesn't involve long writing exercises, and I'm taking my journal, just in case I feel the need to work on it or write. I'll have my laptop, and although I won't have internet access if I need to I can type out emails to my counselor and send them when I get home.

Trying to be excited about it, and I am, but I'm also nervous, just being away from my whole support system. My family and I don't talk about all these things much, if at all really. They don't get it at all. Just praying my phone works out there in case I need it.

Anyway, I'll miss all of you! I'll be so eager to come back and post and read by the time the weekend's over.