Just needed a place to vent and all advice is welcome. The last few months have been extremely intense. First I had a miscarriage after trying for a year, I was devastated. Then a few weeks later I took my sister in because her husband is an a$$ and kicked her out. But that's another issue that I wont get into. For the past month I have been taking care of my sisters needs, she has no money and no job and basically no experience to get a job. I have had a steady job of the past 7 years but I'm just keeping my head above water so taking care of her has been somewhat of a burden for me. But at the same time I am happy to help her. I went to a few meetings in high school but never worked a program, only went because I got caught drinking in class and a teacher thought it would be a good idea since my intire family were alcoholics. Now 31, I have been drinking everyday the last two months because I'm so overwhelmed with so many deferent things that working a program seems like the best thing to do. But I'm so freaked out about going alone. I asked my sister to go with and she said "no thanks" and my husband who has been sober 14 years never worked a program who is so against it that I'd never think about asking him to go with me. I'd feel so odd walking in alone.
Welcome to this wonderful forum. It really helps my sobriety and I pop along and read and post as much as I want/need. But, it really isn't the same as going to face-to-face meetings.
I'm naturally a fairly quiet person and the thought of going to an AA meeting on my own was quite daunting. But, I couldn't have got a warmer and more sincere welcome if I had been meeting up with a group of old friends.
You could always try 'phoning AA in your area and see if somebody could give you a lift and then it wouldn't feel too bad for you. I don't drive and rely a lot of the time on good-hearted people giving me a lift.
Please don't be afraid or feel freaked out. I can truly say that every single person that I have met at meetings have all wanted for me to feel at ease there.
Give it a try and see how it goes for you. You have nothing to lose and so very much to gain.
Please let us know how it goes for you, won't you? There are a lot of super people here on this forum who all wish the best for you.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
"odd"? I was terrified ......But I did it. I walked into that meeting alone, but I haven't been alone since those steps thru that door.......Muster up your courage and just do it.....what have ya got to lose!
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
WoW you guys are like reallly nice...... Thanks for the kind words. Now if anyone could tell me how to find one!! Maybe I could go in the morning before work?
Look in your phone book, under Alcoholics Anonymous (spelled out) for your local chapter. OR you can google (or whatever), AA and where you live.........
-- Edited by Doll at 19:47, 2006-10-03
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
I was also soooo afraid, j'sgirl. But I was MORE afraid of going on the way I was. Just remember alcoholics at the meetings have been in the same boat as you and I. Some have been a lot worse off, too. The only person who will likely be judging you is yourself.
We AA's recognize that, like us, people don't show up to meetings 'having it all together'. Those kind people saw some of my own hurt in themselves. They were very very kind. It was the best decision I ever made in my entire life. Saying a prayer for you.