I actually for the most part feel ok right now... since counseling today. I was dreading counseling so bad... I'd been doing writing exercises from a book and emailing what I wrote to my counselor... and then I had a really bad weekend... I was dreading talking about it all... but we talked about mostly what I felt like talking about... and it was ok... and we talked a lot about the progress I'm making, that when I got depressed Friday, although I thought about drinking I didn't do it. And I didn't hurt myself. And I didn't even think about suicide. And there's several other things I've made some progress with. It made me feel better to look at those things. And it makes me feel really good to know I can get through this without drinking or other bad things.
Thinking on the bright side of things isn't something we alcoholics do very well, if left to our own devices. It is nice to have someone who can help lead us toward a more positive outlook. Kudos for starting counselling.
I need a good dose of positive thinking tonight myself. And a good long night's sleep.
