Maybe it's the new antidepressant working well for me, but I swear I feel so much better. I hated being a martyr. Boo hoo! Poor me! I'm an alcoholic! Waaah! I got so sick of hearing myself whine. Maybe I'm getting closer to acceptance. I don't know. But boy depression really bit the big one! Maybe I can now face sobriety with a positive "thank God I am rid of alcohol" rather than "Boo hoo! I can never touch a drink". It would sure be nice! My own negativity was seriously driving me batty.
Thanks for posting that Heather! I've always looked from the point of view that I can never have another drink. Thanks to that posting, I can look at it as you said: "Glad I got that monkey off my back!!!" Right now, initially, that seems to be a whole different perspective worthy of some good thought training...Tim
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Thanks for such a positive post. I still have the odd negative day, but I'm really working on it. Thanks so much for such a positive slant on sobriety. I needed to read that today.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Life is not meant to be perfect. We must have bad days in order to recognize, enjoy and be thankful for the good ones..........I find it a bit sad that it took a pill to "open your eyes", so be careful that when your body becomes "used" to them, you don't fall back into the same old trap.........You're in my prayers.
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Congrats on getting outside help if that is what you needed... been there and had to do that myself... I leave those kinds of opinions up to doctors who know what they are doing.
Was my post misintrepreted or is it my own paranoia .............Absolutle if you need outside help, get it. I meant that is was just sad that you need it in the way that it's one more "thing" to deal with (lord knows I don't need anymore).....And be mindful of the signs. Antidepressants cause a "FALSE sense of well being" therefore could be potentially dangerous ( check the "side effects").
-- Edited by Doll at 15:26, 2006-09-16
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
I do not feel guilty for getting outside help. Yeah, it's sad that it had to come to that, but if it brings me back from the brink of suicide, then all the side effects in the world are worth it, just to feel like living again! I've been on antidepressants off and on for six years. Some worked, some didn't. But my instability and depression were too hard to deal with unmedicated. I'm glad the drugs are there, even if they have crappy side effects. Dealing with Paxil withdrawal as we speak, but my lack of panic attacks for almost two years make it all worth it. But maybe that's just me.
