Over and over, we begin again. -- Banana Yoshimoto
Newcomer:- Yesterday was such a difficult day. But here it is, morning again somehow. I've gotten through another twenty-four hours, and without a drug. I wish I'd known yesterday that things wouldn't feel so bad this morning.
Sponsor:- Yesterday, we did the best that we could. Yesterday is over. We have slept. We think we know some of what today will hold. We may boil water in the same kitchen, take the same route to work, see some of the faces we usually see. At the meeting we attend, we'll hear the familiar readings; take comfort from hearing the words we've heard before. Perhaps our shoulders, hunched with any tensions we're experiencing, will drop at the sound of those accustomed words, and we'll relax.
Along with the predictable, there may be a thousand unexpected experiences; a new color in the sky, a smile answering our own, a phrase of music, a sense of willingness rising within us to do something differently.
Let's take some deep, slow breaths and begin the day with faith that whatever it brings, we'll be present for it.
This day is a gift that recovery has given to me.
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
I have the Problem, today, in the reverse way. This is how it starts. My day was so full of Gratitude, yesterday, had a wonderful day, ALL Day, then woke up this morning, made coffee went to the Computer, read some stuff that REALLY annoyed me, and was off and running in a note to someone I corresponde with. And in that note, said, I am going to do what obviously I have not done.
This is the exercise as I experience it. I will turn to my Higher Power, and he will transform the day, into a day of simple goodness. I forget that the source of this Goodness, and how it Started, and will at times, just take it back, sort of giving myself the credit for the previous day. Don't really understand how this takes place, somewhere in the deeper part of my mind.
Then I see the error of my ways, and have to go to God, in a very Humble way, and do the correction, turn the day around again, and make a commitment to not repeat this. But will find myself, somewhere soon, down the road, having such a wonderful day, wake up the next morning and forget the Source. Thank God for that saying of "Progress not Perfection" If I were to do all the right things this Program has taught me to do, all the time, as in "Begin my Day with Prayer, everyday, well the I would be doing it Perfectly, but add the human component, and because this is a 24 hour Program, not an Everyday Program, (like everything just falling perfectly in place everyday) can give myself the space to not get real down about this, Just Start over, when you see the Error.
Just start over, and begin again. Everyday we can feel like a newcomer, and that is a wonderful thing, thank you for 12th stepping me, this morning.
Thank you Carol.
Toni
Reminds me of my own Philosophy about the word "Love", I feel it is an ACTION word, just like this Program, that is a 24 hour Program of ACTION.
I too needed this post. I started 'whirling' today thinkiing something got lost in the mail... and that is only the beginning. I must say, a good meeting was what it took to start my day opver...
But today, I just feel like I'm sliping back into the anxiety...
So in fact, I am going to do the UNTHINKABLE at 6:20 pm, and take a nap!!! YUP, in the early evening... LOL i care little whether I will sleep tonight.. I am just so exhausted right now at this very moment, that I need to GO DOWN, and come back up for air...
yes, as my sponsor would advise me... take some time to relax....
