For a long time I have been afraid of people and was too afraid of rejection to put myself out there.
Today something unexpected happened. I went to a BB meeting and after the meeting I headed right out the door. For some reason I decided to go back in. I'm glad I did because a few people were making plans to golf afterwards. Uncharacteristically for me, I asked what course they were playing. That sparked a little conversation and they invited me to play and I accepted.
For some people this might not seem like a very big deal. But for me it was a huge step. I took a chance by opening up a conversation. I spent time with 3 people I didn't know and I didn't feel awkward or out of place.
I didn't play well and we didn't get to finish due to rain but it was fun. And the feeling I have inside is indescribable!
Hi There, how great for you that you took a chance!! It will be so much easier the next time. That is what life is all about, taking chances and not missing out on the good things.
I am so glad you shared your success, it feels so good when we overcome a fear! Take care, and keep sharing.
I think the 'being with AA's" is more important than the golf part, anyway... :o) I am so glad you stepped out like that!!
It is so nice to be doing 'normal' things and actually enjoying them, isn't it?? Slowly but surely in sobriety we begin to feel like a part of our community; our society. And it feels good!! At least I feel that way at this point in my life. Yes, I am an alcoholic in recovery, but I am also an "average resident" in my community!! I love it!!!
So So happy for you, and yes, I understand the fear in that, especially the first time!! Sounds like you are following a lot of good suggestions and I am so glad when you share your journey with all of us!!!
Well done on going back into that meeting. Your HP was certainly at work then!
When I first went back to AA last November I wanted to magically get to know the people without having to really chat with them! But, as my confidence grew, I found it easier and easier to chat with folk. I now have some truly wonderful friends in AA. Even if we don't chat about AA and our problems, it's always good to be around people in the fellowship.
Thank you for sharing with us.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
