I woke up this morning in the middle of a horrible dream. I was in a 'using' place, and someone was going to make me do something I did not want to do. In real life during my using and drinking, I would have ended up doing this 'thing', as my addiciton would have required it. But in my dream I knew I didn't have to any more, and I was planning my way out of the situation, hell or high water. Thank God, my dog barked softly and woke me up, as she had to get out and go potty. :o)
The thing that surprised me is that I was willing to go to any lengths in my dream to NOT do what I didn't want to... I had a choice. Even in my dream-world some of the inner gifts of recovery are becoming a working part of my subconscious. I am really grateful for that.
As uncomfortable as the dream was, I awoke with a lot of gratitude. I was in my own bed at home safe, with no alcohol or drugs anywhere here. No other sickies around me to take advantage of me. Just a peaceful household, me, my pets, and God in every room. Nobody knocking at the door or calling on the phone wanting to share in what was my sick way of life. This place, this home, has never had such goings on, and just for today, it will not. What a blessing and a miracle of recovery and the new life it helps us build for ourselves, with God, one day at a time.
Thanks for listening, and everyone here have a wonderful safe and sober day!
I could really identify with your dream as that happened to me last week. I was dreaming that I was in a pub and there was a drink in front of me. I was under so much pressure to drink it, but I knew that I wasn't going to. I knew that chaos would break out again and I didn't want that.
It was a huge relief to wake up and work out that I was still sober and that I hadn't been drinking. I had so much gratitude for the rest of the day, it was unbelievable.
I have gratitude for this day, too. It's a god day as I've not had a drink!
Take care,
Carol
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Whe I was really new I had a dream that I was walking down my street with one of those big cans of Fosters in my hand, I told myself I don't drink anymore and there was a garbage can to drop the beer in. When I woke I felt good that even in my dreams I didn't want to drink anymore.
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