It's 5 in the morning and something strange is happening. Think I'm feeling good and ............happy.........yeah, that's it! Back to the same ole' Justin? Have to wait and see on that one!
Another 8 hour day at work. Why am I feeling good? Prayers, meeting? Maybe..........
Just wanted to say thankyou to everyone for posting and responding to my posts. It has helped me.
I really got a lot out of last night's meeting. 12&12 study on the 6th step.
One line stuck out to me..........not sure if I got it right but here goes 'The only urgent thing is that we make a beginning, and keep trying.'
Okay I had to copy and paste, but that's the line! This one little line has helped me greatly. Lately I have been looking in all the areas where my sobriety is failing instead of looking at what I'm doing right. I will never be perfect! Why do I beat myself up so when I don't meet my 'expectations' of myself? Why do I put unreasonable 'expectations' on myself? More stuff to work on!!!!! One little part at a time.
I was thinking about writing a book titled "into the mind of an alcoholic." I had to 86 that one because it might cause mass insanity upon viewing!
Take care and enjoy the weekend. I'm off to make the donuts!
It was good to read that you think you are feeling good and happy. I'm so pleased for you. If I wake and I'm feeling good, then I usually do manage to have a good day.
I went to a new meeting last night and I got so much out of it. I guess that I have got into a slight rut by going to the same meetings and hearing the same people, week in and week out. So, it did me good.
Today, I'm working on my step 6 and it feels good to be making progress again. I first I felt about step 6 that it seemed to be asking for perfection and this seemed impossible, but the more I read about this step the more I realized it is not about attaining, but about working towards. That helped me enormously.
Thank you for the quote "The only urgent thing is that we make a beginning, and keep trying." That is really helping me this morning.
Take care and have a great and sober weekend,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Well just came out of a dark fuzzy cloud myself. Just some bad days, nothing more, but when we are in them they do take on a rather permanent feeling, I think it is the gravitational pull downward, like we are stuck in a dark puddle.
Then we are out of that puddle, looking back at it, and for me have to say, that is why I appreciate the Good days, like today, just like you cannot have Light without darkness. It would not exist.
Glad you are feeling up and out, must have been something going around, I was thinking is was acting contagious, Tag, your it, ok, Tag, your it now, haha.
Just some little silly thoughts to the Process, it is all a Process, why do I keep thinking it should be a continueing Event, DUH!
If we keep God in the equation at all times, He will bring us up and out, cannot do by myself.
Might cause mass insanity upon writing. My idea was '1001 breakthru's in self-centered thinking', " To The Wives causes relapse' and, not my idea, but I would be qualified, 'Staying sober on war stories alone.' (On a serious note. To the wives, along with The Family Afterwords, is chalk full of truth, a careful reading is going to shed light on something every time.)
Work was going perfect as can be until after lunch. This guy I work side by side with who's a cocaine dealer started with me. Really pushing my buttons. I got really, really mad and was somehow able to walk away from it. Not what I wanted to do, I did what I thought was right, the next right thing. Progress is sometimes painful, but making good decisions is always something to be happy about after being able to look back at 'em.
57 hours this week! I guess I should start planning my trip to the Bahamas already. LOL! Yeah, right!
Okay, time to get cleaned up and hit a meeting. Gonna go hang with some friends in the program for the night.
