My sponsor had me write out the passages from the Big Book from page 60---"Being convinced..." to page 63---"We were now at Step three" replacing all of the "we and us" with "I and me".... writing it from my perspective. It was enlightening. As I wrote out things like "I am self centered" "I became angry, indignant, self-pitying" I felt the truth to these words. It is easy for me to read these things as "we" and not really have it sink in that I am reading about ME. I am this actor who wants to run the show. I think it is important that it is we in the book because it's good to feel not alone but for me I needed to do this exercise. For me it brought about some humility which I really needed...... It helped me a great deal.
Sometimes I do read the we's, with a sense that there is 'safety in numbers'... but I do need to acknowledge that I am selfish, I am inconsiderate, I... and take ownership. Thanks for sharing this exercise with us!!
Thanks for a really wonderful idea. I can see that it really would be so enlightening.
It is something that I definitely need to do. I am so good at applying the word "we" to meaning other people but certainly not me. I guess I don't like to accept that I do become 'mean, egotistical, selfish and dishonest.' I work hard not to be, but I know that I don't always succeed.
Take care and have a super, sober Sunday.
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
