Hey all. I'm having a really rough time right now. I've not really had any "pink cloud" times, this time around. It's been all one big, black ugly cloud. I am struggling with just functioning at all during the day. I'm dealing with anxiety attacks a lot, and when I'm not having a panic attack, I'm depressed and exhausted. I cannot seem to get enough sleep. I am weak and have no energy for work, let alone exercise.
I do have a doctor's appointment on Monday. So hopefully he will know what to do in regards to my anxiety/depression meds. Also, I will go see a counselor. But in the meantime, it is a huge struggle just to get out of bed and try to get to a meeting or two.
I never knew it would be this hard. But one thing I know for sure, if I don't pick up, things will eventually get better. Right? I am just looking for you all to provide me with a light at the end of this black tunnel.
When I first stopped drinking I felt really good about myself. Then, after a few weeks, I felt so lethargic and depressed. I talked to my sponsor about it and she told me that it was pretty normal. Although I didn't have severe depression I still felt pretty lousy for a while. But, it really does pass. Honestly.
I am so glad that you are going to see your doctor and also a counsellor. I'll be thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.
Take good care of yourself,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
All I can say is just hang in there. I know in the past year I've gone through some major shifts myself. Sometimes it felt like the dark times would never end. However, as I walked and breathed one day at a time, I found sanity in my day to day life.
I notice I have to do alot of self-talk before things begin to change for me. When things seem really scary and dark, its when I have to reach out for help. I too am glad you are seeing your councilor and doctor. Please take good care of yourself. When things are looking and feeling bleak for me, it is when I reach out for help as you have. I send prayers your way.
hugs/Jo-Anne
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I granted myself the gift of sobriety and found my spirit.
Just wanted to let you know that I went through some really horrible anxiety related stuff my first couple months. Had to get hospitalized and stabilized for a lil bit. Went to meetings every day and was plagued by headaches. I'd wake up with 'em and go to sleep with 'em and tylenol and ibuprofen did nothing to relieve it. It was all anxiety related. Eventually things do get better. This I promise. Just hang in there and have hope, okay?
