I'm not! I woke up with a headache, feeling bloated and very tired, kind of groggy...and my first thought was...oh no, I blew it, didn't I..what did I do??? Feelings of disappointment, and shame and discouragement rushed through me. But then I got my bearings and realized I haven't drank in four days and I felt so relieved and proud of myself! I have had a great four days, too...I cry sometimes, but then I read online or some books I have or I grab something healthy to eat or drink and I pull through it. I feel somewhat of a peace of mind, kind of like my "old self"...but then my old anxious thoughts rush back and I worry how I will handle it on those days when I don't have that peace of mind. But I know worrying will get us no where.
One day at a time...and for anyone struggling....most of have such a great length of sobriety under your belt, me with my little old four days, but I can tell you, NOTHING tops this feeling. Not a little buzz, not the taste of a beer or a glass of wine, because we know where that leads. I have a long way to go but I actually look forward to each new day..finally.
I would venture to say there is still some residual damage there... you may go through periods of physically being 'out-of-whack' from time to time. Sounds like you are having a healthy attitude about it.. getting food and liquids in you... and Oh, the gratitude!! One day at a time... congrats on 4 full days!! That is a miracle for an alcoholic!! Keep on keepin' on!!
Your mind and body will go thru a lot of change. The rule of thumb - one month for every year you drank before things start to feel somewhat 'normal". I had crazy dreams, forgot things, forgot words, names, had panic attacks, heart raced, BP went ski high, potassium was ZERO (that's a biggie for us drunks) had some days I felt soo out of it, but it gets better one day at the time.
-- Edited by Doll at 15:34, 2006-07-19
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Shortly after I stopped drinking, I went to bed with a bad migraine. When I woke, several hours later, I couldn't remember why I had gone to bed, but my head was pounding. My heart sank when I thought that I had been drinking again. It was good to realise that I hadn't. So, I know where you are coming from.
Congratulations on not drinking for four days. Keep on doing whatever it is that you're doing.
Take care and have another sober 24 hours,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
In my first couple months the first time I had many dreams about drinking and woke up feeling hungover. God, I hated that! To have a hangover and not because I was drinking........just dreaming about it! Our bodies do wierd things when we get sober.....
Congrats on 4 days! Every day is a miracle for an alcoholic.
