Hi-New here-don't type so pardon me from the start! Got back from a HG meting -still heavy in the heart. Today is day 65 for me and I'm going for 90 in 90.Been journaling from the start-my hand seems to be able to keep up even when my head is outta control! Problem is-my H is having an online affair with a girl in "the other" chat room.8 to 10 calls a day--5 or 6 hours every day on the computer--Even when we took the kids to the bahamas on vacation!! I know I have been awful in the past but I have been doing some real soul searching and BB work.Getting ready to write inventory and step 4--my sponsor is awesome--makes me go slow though--patience I guess! He has been treating me so badly-lying-hiding-self rightgeous justification-defensive -sometimes I just can't stand it-We are talking about splitting-cuz he's in love with someone else!! Whew--this sounds like a pity party -It's really not--just that timing SUCKS sometimes doesn't it???? I've been praying for him--but it sure is hard!! AND now I have to add her to my resentment list and we've never even met!!! Thanks for letting me vent--feel better already.
staying sober insures that you will indeed get through whatever comes to pass... and you will be able to be happy at some point.
Good job with getting into recovery and the Steps!! Praying for you and your family. In time, you will decide what you deserve and what you don't, regardless of what you did while drinking... and it sounds like you have some support.
Hi green and welcome. The good news is, we don't have to accept the un-acceptable. And the other good news is, we don't have to drink over it either........Allow yourself to feel whatever it is you're feeling.
You're in my prayers. Keep coming.
-- Edited by Doll at 10:37, 2006-07-18
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Hope you read Phil post on Alcoholism this morning.
The BIG transition for me in this Program, was in slowly seeing that ACCEPTANCE part as Life on Life's Terms, not my terms.
But the hardest one for me was to get to the point of admitting and Acceptance of my hopelessness with Alcohol. That I had a Disease called Alcoholism.
Husband finally just gave up, and left. I missed him like crazy, but I just kept drinking and drinking and drinking.
Hope that you have good success with you Sponsor, and the Steps of Recovery, up and out of the Disease of Alcoholism.
This is a great site, for support for where ever you are in Recovery.
