In every case, pain had been the price of admission into a new life. But this admission price had purchased more than we expected. It brought a measure of humility, which we soon discovered to be a healer of pain. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 75
It was painful to give up trying to control my life, even though success eluded me, and when life got too rough, I drank to escape. Accepting life on life's terms will be mastered through the humility I experience when I turn my will and my life over to the care of God, as I understand Him. With my life in God's care, fear, uncertainty, and anger are no longer my response to those portions of life that I would rather not have happen to me. The pain of living through these times will be healed by the knowledge that I have received the spiritual strength to survive.
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Today is July 16, 2006 A Great Day for Recovery!
DESIRE
"One must not lose desires. They are mighty stimulating to creativeness, to love, and to long life." --Alexander A. Bogomoletz
Today I desire to live. I have discovered value in my life. I have experienced personal self-esteem. I am able to feel again, talk, trust and laugh again. Today I desire to live.
But I can remember when I felt lonely, isolated, angry, shutdown and hopeless. The desires I had were destructive, desiring isolation mingled with alcohol. Then the pain became too great and I experienced a vital "moment". I realized I needed to make a choice -- was I to live or die? I chose to live!
This was the beginning of my spiritual journey into self from which I discovered God and His world. Creative and positive desires were re-born in my life, and I am able to live and love again.
O Lord, may I continue to desire those things that do not hurt me.
-- Edited by Doll at 08:26, 2006-07-16
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Thanks for this Post. A good reminder of keeping those First things First.
Wishing you a happy and peaceful Sunday. It is really early here in California, and turning to a Power Greater that me, for some guidance for today.
Toni
I don't know if you downloaded and listened to Joel's meditation websites, but they are so so great. Silencing the mind, and have a direct hit on the rather nagging annoying fears that can just kind of linger in a very subtle way in our thinking. I have listened to Meditation stuff for many years, and this Website is like the Cream de la Creme.
For me it turned yesterday, Saturday, into one of the most peaceful days, I have had in a Long Time.
Looking forward to hearing from you after your Meeting on Monday. Again, thanks for the Post.
