I promise to take the cotton outta my ears and not only stick it in my mouth, but shove it all the way down my throat. I need this place.
First, my apologies to all that I pissed off and/or offended. I hope you can forgive me, and if not, atleast tolerate me and help me.
I have been so angry for so long. Angry at that fact that I'm an alcoholic. Angry at the fact that I thought just because my bottom is high, I could do this alone. Angry at not being able to set up boundaries for others, and put my foot down when they crossed it. Angry at the fact that I have found I need another person in my life to make me feel secure!
I haven't been to a meeting in many months, but I managed to stay sober, until 2 days ago! I would have had a year on 8/11! A year of abstinence but not real recovery, looking back now. So, I'm trying to see this as positive. I do believe nothing happens by mistake.
I'm not yet ready to back to AA. But I'll get there soon. Thought I'd start over again, here, if you all will have me
Humbly, Doll
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
I'm Carol and I'm an alcoholic. Although we haven't 'met' before, it's good to see you.
I started back with AA in November of last year after an 18 month break. It was the very worst time of my life. I'm lucky that I went back to AA. Everyone is lucky that AA is here for us.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
We welcome you back with open arms, and hope that you continue to move forward in your recovery.
A brain full of knowledge never got or kept me sober. Working this program, applying the spiritual principles of it in all my affairs and letting go of my need to be the center piece of the universe, surely increased the odds towards recovery.
Sometimes I still have to ask myself...
Am I a Sober Drunk, or a Drunk that got Sober? There is a difference.
Being a sober drunk reeps the same results for me as being a wet drunk. Not any joy or freedom.
Hope you will stick it out, and do exactly what you have said you are willing to do...
That is always a great place to start for every one of us.
Dear Doll, you were one of the first people I met when I came onto this site. I sensed you were a spirited, yet sensitive person (yep, a couple of good prerequisites for us alkies!).
You welcomed me with open arms, which is how I welcome you back now.
From my discussions with you in the past, I also know that you are a caring person....(not so different, you and I)..... you may have noticed the uncanny coincidence that you and Tipsy are posting for the first time in many weeks...on the same day.
I am still and agnostic , but stuff like this is what makes me lean pretty hard toward the angel's side of the fence.
Rosie? You were asked to leave this board a month ago...We have received no instructions...to let you back on...any posts here have been deleted..case closed...
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"LOVE" devoid of self-gratification, is in essence, the will, to the greatest good...of another.
I'm still out on short term disability. Go back to work Aug. 14. The kid goes to family court on Thursday to "see" if they should press charges! Prayers needed on that one, my friend.
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.