"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
I'm Carol and I'm an alcoholic. I only joined this Forum a few weeks ago, so we haven't 'met'. I know what you mean about it not being great 'out there'. I had eight glorious weeks with AA and decided I knew how to handle my 'drink problem' (well, I certainly wasn't an alcoholic!). It took me eighteen months to crawl back to AA. Then, I dreaded meeting folk that I had known before, but that was crazy of me. One wonderful woman that I really had been dreading meeting just hugged me and said 'Welcome home'. It really did feel as if I had gone home, too. So far, fingers crossed, it's working one day at a time.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
I just wanted to say Welcome, I don't know you either, not yet.
Had to laugh at your Avatar, I call my Addiction to Alcohol, that I am in Recovery from, "My Sleeping Gaurilla" Don't know how to spell it, but he looks like my addiction, but mine is sound asleep today, in the little 24 hour a Day Program. Shhh! don't want to wake him.
Hey, welcome! I'm pretty new here also. I have two weeks sober this time around. Yea! Anyway, I definitely know the tail-between-the-legs feeling. It's really humiliating walking into a meeting again after being "out there" for so long. But it's amazing how great it is to be welcomed back with no ill feelings from others.
P.s. Toni, I like your mental image of your disease. Mine was a wolf in sheep's clothing. btw, it's "gorilla." I suck at math and science, but spelling and grammar are my strong points.
Hi Tipsy. I gotta agree with Phil. I have often wondered how you were doing (believe it or not, as recently as yesterday), and hoping you were doing ok.
Welcome back.
As for advice, can't say much, other than each of us seeks daily for whatever tools will help us in our battle with this compulsion. I hope you can find some tools here that will help you.
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and please let me just break this thread just a little, with:
HD, thanks, I think I forgot to remember how to spell Gorilla, sad news is I use to take great pride in being able to spell anything, Time does change things, HaHa.
And my gorilla has no sheep's clothing to it. Just a wild and deadly animal, that I do have to do the work daily, to just keep that "Monster Disease" I've got, really sound asleep, I do believe, with my Relapse history, if it EVER woke up, I would barely see the light of day, don't believe I have another Recovery in me. Someone wrote on this board, a month ago, that our Disease is doing push-ups in the Parking Lot, when we are in a meeting, WOW, how is that for a scary thought.
And Cabbage head, wait till Dori finds out it is Natural, hahahahahahaha
Thank you all for your kind words...I almost wish I hadn't deleted my account so that I could read my departing thread where I smugly declared that I just simply wasn't like "you people" and whatever other nonsense I wrote. I wish I could read it and re-read it so that I could wallow in my stupidity and shame. Then maybe I would remember and not allow myself to become so sickeningly arrogant and foolish.
I don't deserve your kind words or the life I have, a wonderful girlfriend, a nice home, a cute (but destructive) dog, a good job...I don't deserve any of it. I deserve to live alone, under a bridge, eating pigeons, rats and roadkill, earning dimes and nickles doing disgusting odd jobs that no one else wants to do like picking gum out of public urinals...that's what I deserve, if karma really existed that would be my life.
But, since karma doesn't exist, thanks for having me back
