Well this week was a real roller coaster, Up, then Down, Up then Down, and then finally crashing into a down.
Balance, the need for Balance was what I needed, the Roller Coaster was an Emotional Roller coaster.
I am grounded today, sort of, thank you my Higher Power.
Talking alot to a co-Sponsor is what helps, but we both agree that it is our Alcoholic Minds that keep us feeling the absense of Serenity. The need for Silence and Prayer, can change this.
Signing off with a need to do just that, just being quiet, meditation, and Prayer. Praying for a lot of Silence in this week-end. Kind of like a trip to a dessert. A need to connect with my own Spirit, through a Power Greater than myself.
See you all tomorrow, hope so. Amazing to me that we do have this strange wiring in our brains, no amout of time, is going to be fixing that one, that is why the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous offers us the TOOLS. There are there at our disposal, but have to remember to Pick them UP, and Use Them.
Thanks for a GREAT post. It was exactly what this alcoholic mind needed to read just now. I, too, have had a very up and down week. One minute I have been on my pink, fluffy cloud and the next minute the sky was falling in on me.
I have tried so hard this week to remain peaceful and grateful for everything that I now getting back in my life. But, I have to admit, that I haven't always managed it.
What I have needed is balance. My sponsor 'phoned me this morning and wondered how I was feeling. That really helped me to calm myself down.
But, thanks to your post, Toni, I'm going to spend the rest of my day being aware of my need for balance.
Thank you for reminding me.
Take care and have a great weekend,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
I feel the same way.....my moods and my outlook on life can change in minutes..and I don't know where it comes from. This week was particularly hard, and the ups and downs were constant. I have thought many times in the past few years that maybe I was a mild form of bipolar. But the alcoholic mind seems to make more sense. It's kind of like talking yourself out of not drinking..one second you are rationalizing why you "should" and the next, going through all the reasons you shouldn't...and hope the former wins out. Mood swings and emotional rollercoasters are one more way for me to feel out of control, while I like the highs (w/out alcohol of cou rse) the unpredictability of when the low is going to come is scary. Good to know I'm not the only one.
Sounds like a great idea to spend some time and try and grasp onto some peace and serenity. I hear a lot of talk about balance around the tables. All I know is when the bubble is in the middle it's okay to throw some nails in!
I don't think I will achieve a perfect balance. I do think that I will learn how to deal with bad moments better though.
Had a rough start today at work. Got mad and threw a crowbar, a little one, and not at anyone. Yeah, I need to learn how to deal with life when it throws it's curves at ya. I'm not saying this as a copout, but it is all about progress. What can I learn that will help me to deal with life? And how can I apply it in a healthy way?
Know the feeling, had a tough week too, when ive had enough ive had enough I hope ive learnt my lesson, was up till 4 this morning jittery, then woke up again at 8, wasnt alcohol was something else but boy did I feel rough today, I dare not tell my sponcer as he will shame me! I am so glad I have not picked anything up today, I dont mind admitting my faults here because I know you guys wont judge me.
