A monthaversary, yay! That's probably a new word, but it fits. I had to ask my sponsor today if I should announce that I have four months. The only reason I asked is because AA annaversarys are at one, three, six, nine months, one year, two years, etc. He told me I should be proud of myself and to definitely announce it.
This is my fourth time having four months. Kinda scary. I remember when I couldn't put seven days together if my life depended on it. I got to six over and over but then payday rolled around...vroom......vroom.... Well you get the picture.
I find myself sometimes unhappy with the way things are. The feelings of gratitude fall away. Life becomes stressful. Start taking my will back. Stop praying. I guess by now the red lights start flashing in my head. Danger! Danger! Then I have to get back to doing the basics and get my head out of my ass. It's so easy to fall into the old ways of doing things and it's like I don't even realize it at times. Today things are good. When I look back to where I was four months ago it's hard to believe I am living this life. Four months ago I had a choice, I could go back to drinking or I could try and get sober.......again. I wasn't sure what to do. I really had to think about it. It really came down to whether I wanted to live or die. I honestly don't think I would have lasted long out there considering past experiences. I think I made the right choice!
The thing that bugs me about all this is - why is it so easy at times to forget where I've come from, what I've been through, and why I got sober in the first place? Get caught up in life and all it's complexity and forget about what's important, which is my sobriety and those around me that care about me, and my relationship with my higher power.
Oh well, I've said more than I intended to. Probably should post more often!
Hope everyone is having a good week. The work week is almost over.....Yay!
Congrats on 4 months. Here where I live we celibrate every month up until a year and you get a coin. Don't worry about forgetting where you came from. That is why it's a one day at a time program is to remind ourselves everyday why we are here. Some days we struggle and some days are good. Again congrats on 4 months ((((((((((Huggys))))))))))
When I was read this, I thought I am sure happy you made the choice to stay Sober, it's only one day at a time.
So good to see you Post, and I agree with You completely, it would be so great to see you Post more, but I do know you have one busy schedule.
I take my Will back too at times, and Yicks I don't like the feeling, to me it is part of the Reflexology of an Alke. At least this alke.
Meetings still have so much power in over coming self-will. Sure made a different to me today.
Someone said something today in the meeting, that I really needed to hear, that every AA meeting is DOING the 1st, 2nd, and 3rd Step of this Program. Great stuff, eh???
Hugs to you and Congratulations on all the hard work you have done, every day!
I remember when I couldn't put four days of sobriety together. Even one day was a major achievement for me. I try to remember just how bad my drinking got. I wrote out pages and pages on my Step 1 and I often go back to it to remind myself. I get days when I can't really believe the difference in my life then and how it is now. But, I do always remember to be grateful for what I have today. Today I have a life. Back then it was a miserable existence that I wanted to end.
Have a brilliant day, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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4 Months is WICKED and definately worthy of announcing!!!! In my Meetings we announce every Monthaversary in the first year of sobriety...chips are given as already stated but each Month of sobriety is celebratory!!! WTG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It looks good on ya! =)
Congrats!! I am coming up on 30 days (again) tomorrow. I try not to think about it too much. I've had it before and lost it so I know that I have to keep doing what I'm doing to keep going where I'm going.....It's so easy to forget the horror of what alcohol does to me. Insanity...
4 months is a great achievement. When I was drinking I couldnt manage 4 days without wanting to drink. Time in recovery has taught me that never take recovery for granted. The little devil always on your shoulder. At 4 months sober I felt as though I was making progress, acceptance came first at 2 months and at 4 months I felt as though life was changing, at this time friends started to come back into my life.
Good luck with your recovery hang on in there it gets easier. After 5 years trust me life gets good. Virgo
