Well, I guess I want to talk about resentment. I understand it can be about anger, resentment, fear, etc. But can it just plain be anything that ticks you off....and then you wonder what's the real issue? [Anger for me is so cyclical. I think it's done and over with, and then it circles 'round and bites me in the butt again.]
I know I have PMS which adds to the whole mix. I know on the alanon side we say we get "irritable and unreasonable without even knowing it."
Well, I usually KNOW it (that I am unreasonable and irritable), but I do not always know 'why". Does this make sense to any of you on the AA side, too?
Just a note from an Alke. I notice this morning, well half way into the morning, I was feeling grumpy, for most of the time, I never feel grumpy, don't feel a resentment toward anyone, just plain old grumpiness.
It does come up, and I do think it is a cyclic thing, not PMS, but that same sort or cycle. No reason.
I just got off the telephone with a friend, and was talking about this feeling and we both ended up doing some venting, bla, bla, bla, and then ended up laughing at the whole thing, and it seems to have gone, to a degree.
I am a person that has always a very difficult time with anger, I would generally turn my anger inward at myself, that was my pattern, and now it just feels kind of healthy for me, anyway, to acknowledge, when I am not feeling my usual easy going self.
I personally think this might cross over boundaries of Alanon, A. A., men and woman both have these cycles, like Bio-Rythums, (spelling?) but remember when that was an acknowledged science. The general idea was that we all have highs and lows of Physical, Emotion and Mental rythums and that they are constantly moving either into a high or low position. And the contention, back then, (in the 70's) was that when any of these three were crossing over the midline, (that was referred to as a critical line) that when one of these states was crossing over this line at the same time, that the person would experience these feelings of being out of sorts.
It was an acknowledged science in the 70's, so much so, that according to articles you would see in the Newspapers, that Japanese Pilots were not allowed to fly when their Physical state was crossing over this critical line, because the contention was that we were more accident prone during this time.
Wow, and you thought you were in a bad mood before, and now you are probably saying, What the heck does this have to do with a Resentment. HA HA HA
But I just personally attribute a "less than favorable attitude" to just being what it is, and feel pretty confident that it will pass, as surely as the sun will set.
You know the saying "Take what you want and leave the rest", well if you want to throw this whole thing in the proverbial garbage can, I can relate to that too. haha
Good to see again, wish you would drop by more.
You have so many times come up with the wisdom I needed to hear for that moment in time.
hey walls, i can sure relate to resentment......i felt it BIG time, AND with a dose of huge RAGE on top of it
i just kept writing, sharing, venting, SCREAMING it till i wore me out.....now its grief...and that will EVENTUALLY go and i'll get into acceptance.....
so dont' worry, u r just "processing" ur recovery, peace/ rosie
