Hello! I am new here--posted once tonight already--I tend to be compulsive when I do things! Drinking was definately one of those compulsive things. Anyhow, I have been going to AA for a little over 6 months. I "think" I was an alcoholic for about the past 6 years. It increased over each year--okay, maybe each month! I went to 90 meetings in 90 days & continued to go each day up until a month ago when I hit my busy season at my company. I make it a couple times a week still. I still havent gone past step one because I dont really have a higher power--I dont believe in the God that most AA people believe in--although many of the ones I know didnt in the begining either so there is still hope for me! My husband is a firm beliver in God & other than the drinking the only thing we would fight about was religion. I dont believe that I am my own higher power by any means--I have been using the AA group & my family. Its worked so far. I may be sober for the next five years & still be on step one though. I know now that I want to believe there is a God but I struggle immensly with that fact. I have gone from being an atheist to being an agnostic--one small stepper closer! Is there anyone here who has been an AA member & sober for many years without believing in a God? Im just curious to see if I am the only "oddball" here- ;)
Sherry
By the way, this is my reason for my email address!
Congratulations on being sober. I am just at the admitting there is a problem stage. It seems as though you are searching for God. I'm not here to preach to you, but I can tell you He is very real. He has always taken care of me. (I am talking about Jesus Christ, the Son of God, not some abstract god.) It must be difficult in your relationship when your husband is a believer and you are not. Ask Him to show you signs that He is real, and He will. I wish you the best in your recovery and your relationship with your husband, and of course, in getting to know the Lord.
And Higher Power? well...this is a spiritual program....and each believes in their own Higher Power...individually...and thats as simple as beliving in a Power greater than ourselves...and as one of you mentioned...the AA group itself..
All I know personally is..that there is a Higher Power..greater than myself...and thats my own thing...
We do not bring religious beliefs into it...and we not against those, that have religious beleives..
We just dont discuss religion...or bring religion..to our AA boards...or ftf AA meetings....or AA as a whole..in any form....thus keeping things simple..and just calling it a Power Greater Than Ourselves..
Wishing you both the best..one day at a time...Phil from Canada
-- Edited by Phil at 19:59, 2006-06-03
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