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If you can call this 'a topic'. Just gave my daughter a bath. She wants me to play 'dolly hospitals' with her, and I feel really played out for the day, to be honest.


I have a really sore throat today and I keep thinking, wouldn't a glass of red be nice and soothing? Idiotic, since I'd have to smoke at the same time, and not even a person in TOTAL denial can contend that cigarettes plus booze might 'soothe' a sore throat.


M just rang up....so of course I'm feeling cheerful in a bogus sort of way. Apparently he has bought me a mobile phone (I don't have one at the moment). I still don't know when I'll see him next, though. I've explained to him  that I don't want to drink if we go out anywhere, and, not being an alcoholic himself, this does not especially bother him. In fact, we seem to have a much better time together when I am not drinking. Perhaps he's not all 'bad news'. Most of the men I have been involved with would find it impossible to not drink/not take drugs because I was trying to quit.


Oh well, best go and play with my sweetie. She just came in and bit me on the arm....I think she is trying to tell me something!


PS don't worry I'll try not to litter the board with Sycorax spam (ie minute-to-miute updates on whether or not I've managed not to drink).



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Each sober moment is a victory! That "sweetie" is a precious child of God and deserves a sober Mom. Children of active drunks don't get to have a childhood....My heart soars when I see parents of little ones get sober....'cause now they get a chance to just be kids!!

Hang in there, go to a ton of meetings...a better life awaits your family.

  
I remain forever grateful that I'm Done Drinkin
Yours In Recovery
John C

http://donedrinkin.blogspot.com/


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Just for today..I will not pick up a drink and go to a meeting....just for today...I will not pick up a drink..and go to a meeting...just for today...I will not pick up a drink...and go to a meeting..


Just for today..I will arrest my obsessions of the mind...will not pick up a drink and go to a meeting..:)



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Write as much as you want, my dear; if it helps you, I'll be happy to see a novelette in your next post.


If you don't have an AA friend, or (better yet) sponsor, I strongly recommend finding one.  Phil posted a link, a couple of posts down from this, to a site called "12step.com".  I would not recommend anyone try to work through the steps without an experienced AA guide (someone who has already been guided through the steps, and has over a year of sobriety). 


However, having read your last post before this one, it appears to me that you have a lot of issues going on in your life with which working the steps (particularly step 4) could greatly assist you in your decision processes.  Step four doesn't make the decisions for you, nor does it allow your guide to make the decisions for you.  It does give you tools to really analyze your emotions and thought patterns which are influencing your decisions. 


So there you go, Sycorax....you write the novels, and I will do essays.  We are all praying for you and your little girl. 


Peace in Recovery,


Dan 


 


 


 



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Keep it simple, sweets....one day at a time!


hugs,


Dana xo



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I am really glad to hear that you are having a good day.  A play by play of your day is perfect.  If it keeps you sober, keep typing!  I'd love to hear how you are doing.


Take care of you and your baby.  A glass of ice water will soothe your throat much better than a glass of red anyway. 


Have a good day,


WRbeachbum



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Hi There,

Well read both of your Post, and I agree, PLEASE DO write, as much as you want, endless essays, if you want, thats what the Board is for.

Just wanted to make a little comment on something you wrote in PM, that stood out in my mind. You told that you and a friend had an endless talk the other day on the subject of whether there is or is not A HELL.

My thinking when I read that dear, was yep, there is, and you are living in it today.
Just my own little opinion here, nothing more:

Cross addicted to pills, and Alcohol, addicted to unhealthy relationships. Buying Alcohol, putting it in frig, and playing Russian Roulette. Can it getting any worse, unfortunately the answer is yes.

Someone made a comment the other day about an old saying in this Program.

"Religion is for people that fear Hell",
"Spirituality is for people that have already been there"

This is a very simple Program, not at all easy, but remains always simple.

Going to a meeting, everyday, not drinking in between,
Going back to meeting, repeating this process everyday,
You can walk out of all the above, in this Simple Process.

Sometimes people need outside help, couselors that are specialist in cross addictions, I for one really needed this extra help, if only to make a commitment to her, that I would NOT use any band-aides until I saw her next, No Alcohol, No Drugs, No Men. Three band- aides stayed off, and in time with the above Rx of a meeting everyday, not drinking in between, the air and sun, and what I was being educated in now, began to heal all of these wounds.

I will never be "cured" of the Disease of Alcoholism, and I do understand that first and foremost.

I was going around the corner and up the hill to a Liquor Store for a number of weeks to buy a pack of cheap Cigarettes. At first I thought how convenient this store was. Then about two weeks ago, I was waiting in line, and the old saying ran thru my hard head, "If you keep going back to the Barber Shop, you WILL get a Haircut". Bought my cigarettes, and made a decision to never return to the Liquor Store, even though they had really good low prices on smokes, I have heard and do believe that the Disease of Alcoholism sits in silence, waiting for me, to make a mistake, (just like the one I described) and I could see, that my thinking of "Oh, I've been sober for over 16 years, going to a Liquor store, isn't really a slippery place for ME. WRONG thinking. Once maybe, but repeating this every week, really scared me, thank you my Higher Power, that I choose to call God.

Alcohol is only the tip of the iceberg, the iceberg must be faced, and it can be and it does illuminate itself, with the removal of these band-aides.

Alcohol is but a symptom of these underlying causes. The 'isms' of this disease will be addressed and dealt with, with a Sponsor, as a guide, in this AA Program, in the working of the 12 Steps of Recovery. The WORKING of these 12 Steps, IS the way out of the Disease of Alcoholism.

Hope someday you can see that a meeting everyday, is not just an option.

Please keep writing to us, good to see you participating so much more that a few weeks ago.

Love, your sister in Recovery,

Toni



-- Edited by Toni Baloney at 20:56, 2006-05-31

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Howdy., It made me smile anyway. we want to hear your sober moments! keep em rolling, I always found red wine and fags as soothing as a chain saw on the teeth, perhaps a cup of tea may help more followed by a chocky bisquit.


custard and baked beans are also great! not together though thats just wrong. I have eaten cheese even though i know im allergic to it! suffering now! I am powerless over cheese paninni's



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