I have thought about drink a few times today.. Not to the point that iv had to battle with myself. Just thought of it a few times..
Had big salad again though spent more time laying it out and it was abit bigger tonight.. And now, two hours later im eathing cheese n crackers.
Bin a bit of a dull day really, cos too tired to do anything. Though now i feel as if i wont sleep till late tonight. Anyway when i do go to bed i will be going sober and waking up sober.
GREAT, GREAT, GREAT, GREAT, one for each day, you can do this, takes guts, but you are doing it.
I agree with Bob, go out and have an ice cream sunday somewhere, or buy your favorite ice cream and have at it.
Hugs, Toni
When you think of that store, and what you could buy there, you might think about thinking back to it, with "Thanks for sharing". haha. That particular store sounds like the most Slippery Place there is for you, and in early Sobriety, the saying is "Stay Away from Slippery Places!" you will hear it a lot when you get into a lot of meetings.
Hope you have a peaceful night, and thanks for the pic. of that Salad, anytime you are in California, you could stop by and make one up.
I do believe that the body really craves the sugar, that was in the other stuff. most Recovering Alcoholics have a very strong sweet tooth, feed it with something else that is healthier, candy bars, ice cream. Chocolate is good too.
I never ate sweets, until Recovery, then I indulged myself when ever a sugar craving came up. You can trick the body, by doing do. you might think about buying a stash of your favorite candy bar, if you have one, then have one everday after work, it will cut the craving for the other. Does Work.
LOL, you just keep eatin' those cheese and crackers Rob. Four days! Don't need to tell you how that makes us all feel. Been a decent day, lousy night last night, so feeling kind of stupid today, but that's okay. Bet I sleep good tonight, if I can make it that long. Afraid if I nap I'll sleep for three hours and then play hell trying to sleep tonight. Cheese and crackers. That sounds good. Only I'm out of cheese. I hope tomorrow is a good day for you. Give Alan a call maybe? And know we're here supporting you, Big Hug wren
ps-- what pic of salad?
-- Edited by Wren at 18:07, 2006-05-07
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Hey Wren.. Did you ever make cheese when you had your goats???
Yeah knowing you guys are here supporting me does make a diffence, believe me. I dont think i can have any candy for a couple of days - a bastard ulcer has come up on my figgin tongue, bloody thing!
If i can stay sober tomorrow night then i can go to the meeting Tuesday, where alan will be there and maybe a couple of the other blokes and women iv met there might be there too and i can say to the group that i have 5 days.. I have been to 6 meetings and ive never once been able to even say iv had a day.. But im not gona count my chickens as they say cos i gota get through tomorrow yet.. I really really really wana be able to say iv got 5 days when i go tuesday... and hear peoples reactions.. I think i need that. Those peoples reactions at me doing well.. It would be a whole new thing for me.. Maybe even a new doorway.
Thanx you guys, for being here for me and cheering me. I think this process would be alot harder withouth you and these boards.. I have got so much from these boards.. I was thinking tonight when i was washing up about how little i would know if it was only for the actual meetings. And i doubt id have been to so many meetings. This place really has.. well really is helping me.. Its sometimes easier to say stuff when you have time to type it and change it and think about it rather than a phone call to somoone ya know.. And if rem something later that i forgot i can add it.. But im really not sure if id being doing as well as i am if it wasnt for this board! I really dont know where id be.. Infact, as iv said before, it was these boards that helpd me make that phone call and helped me get through that meeting.. Made me feel like i wasnt walking through those doors for the first time completely alone. And alot of my concerns about aa had already been answerd on these baords so it has all helped..
Anywa im not gona go on anymore right now.. Just wana thank you guys.. Everyone.
Yup, cheeses and my favorite, goat yogurt. Real tangy. If you feed a goat properly, and give her good grain made special for milk goats, you cannot tell the diff. between cow and goat milk. I had customers actually question me about whether it was goat or cow milk. I went thru the girls' pasture picking out anything that I didn't want them to eat. Like, salal is really good for them if they're under the weather--but it makes their milk taste horrid, so when I'd supplement them with something, I gave the milk to the (damned) pigs. I had this one goat, my very first, named Tessie. Oh, man, did I ever love her. I won national awards for her production, butterfat and protein content during milk testing years. She was a wonder, and her milk was as sweet and clean as honey. Anyway, I would sometimes feed my goats powdered garlic in the course of the season, to help make sure my bacteria count would be down. I was always so worried about mastitis. Tessie loved garlic, and I do mean loved it. My milk parlor got damp one winter, and the garlic powder kinda hardened into this resin. I was showing a girlfriend how much Tess loved the garlic--I pulled off a piece, and she'd chew it like a kid with a wad of gum, and we stood there laughing. I didn't look at the clock--two hours before milking time. I went to milk that girl, and it was like I was milking out spagetti sauce----the garlic was so strong I could hardly keep my head over the pail, and I really love garlic. LOL, the pigs got her milk that night, and I didn't ever do that again. Wow, do I ever miss my goats. Still got my old 14 yr old, tho, Tess's half sister, and she's as healthy and strong as a 4 year old. My husband and her go for walks in the woods in the mornings, it's so cute. Looks like Santa Claus and his reindeer without the horn rack.
You're good for us, too, Rob. Wren
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When you mentioned those blisters in your mouth. it reminded of when i had this bread machine, and was making bread in it every other day. When I started getting little blisters in my mouth, it was a sign of an allergic reaction to all the Brewers Yeast, had to stop making the beard, put the machine away, and just use Store Bought Bread, now.
And you are still using that stuff that has all the yeast in it, (Cannot remember the name, marmack or something like that.) Ask your Doctor is the blisters could me a sign of too much yeast.
As soon as I stopped eating the homemade bread, the blisters went away in a couple of days, never to return.
Anyway, it was something I forgot to write about when you mentioned the blisters before.
have a good day, and why would the blisters interfere with a candy, or sweets??? Curious???
I take Brewers Yeast tablets every day, they are life savers. Sweets, chocholate sugar etc irratates mouth ulcers.. I have had some really bad ones before because i had too many boiled sweets. It was so bad i coulnd even talk and i took time off as holiday cos i didnt want any more time sick. I will not be able to have squash in my water untill ulcers have gone cos of the sugar etc. I think its a combination of my mouth beign realy dry.. then all the pringles my mum bought me cos perhaps too much salt as well as me drinking squash.. But they have sprung up abit sudden and it is abit wiered...
Oh well we shall see.. And btw..lol i dont alwasy have marmite.. i cant rem if i had any this morning or not... maybe alittle.. hmm i must have done.. yeah i had abit on toast this morning.. but i actualy took less brewers yeast tablets because im getin abit low and they are better saved for when im at work when i need the energy more.
Right night all. Im off to bed in a minute.. iv been saying that to myself for about half an hour or more.. its now 01:18 n i gota get up at 7.... so not long.. Night....
Rob said, "Thanx you guys, for being here for me and cheering me. I think this process would be alot harder withouth you and these boards.. I have got so much from these boards.. I was thinking tonight when i was washing up about how little i would know if it was only for the actual meetings. And i doubt id have been to so many meetings. This place really has.. well really is helping me.. Its sometimes easier to say stuff when you have time to type it and change it and think about it rather than a phone call to somoone ya know.. And if rem something later that i forgot i can add it.. But im really not sure if id being doing as well as i am if it wasnt for this board! I really dont know where id be.. Infact, as iv said before, it was these boards that helpd me make that phone call and helped me get through that meeting.. Made me feel like i wasnt walking through those doors for the first time completely alone. And alot of my concerns about aa had already been answerd on these baords so it has all helped.. "
That is soo good to see, Rob. We all care about you very much. We don't always all agree, but we do all care in our ways.
God bless you,
love in recovery,
amanda
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I am so glad for you Rob! Your posts are something I look forward to. I have noticed how much calmer and happier they are since you have not been drinking. It's amazing that even from across the world I can see you change and get well even though I never see your face.....Too cool. I love this board as well. So much hope and strength and encouragement here. Keep it up, your doing great!!
Congratulations Rob on another 24 hours. I am really hoping that you can get to more meetings. Meetings are an alcoholics lifeline. Insurance against that first drink. I can't tell you enough how much they help me. From your attitude in here I really think that meetings would be beneficial to you. You have a great perspective on your problems and how they relate to alcohol. I'm saying this because I want you to stay sober and find out how great A.A. truly is. Ask anyone in here where they would be without the meetings and see what kind of response you get. Take care and keep up the good work. I'm really happy for you.
