Had set amount to drink last night and didnt go over that.. Woke early, not much sleep since. Ass out of bed emptied most of my car and hooverd it ready to put stuff back in and camping stuff.. Decided to get my road tax sorted before filing car up. The MOT certificate that i need to get my tax is out of date, i have been driving around illegaly for a week cos fro some reason i thought it ran out in july, doh! I just heard form the garage that its failed its mot test on a few things and is probably gona be expensive. Geting quote on tuesday. Gota go to post office in the morning to declare my car off the road otherwise i get a massive fine when my tax is not renewed (due sunday). So no camping trip for me this weekend. Credit card on hold because i didnt make full payment (id lost bill so paid what i thought would cover it), but paid that now, but got charged for late payment. Cant find my driving licence, always in my wallet but now its not. Been abit panicy at times today, probably because i had less to drink last night than i have done recently and what with everythign goin on today. Iv never missed an mot or had to declare car off road. Also my computer got infected by loads of viruses... but after long boot scans is ok now.. i think.
Possitives of today... The sun is shining.. Credit card bill paid. pc seems ok now... car might not work but its clean ... so far i havent had a drink today.. though i think that wont last very long..
Edit: Took my mums car to take form to post office to declare car off road. Went to shop.. Then had to drive to other shop to get my mum chocolate, got back in car just about to pull forward and some little girl ran straight out from behind a wall and infront of the car.. .thankfuly i wasnt moving otherwise i might have something else to add to my days negatives. Stupid little girl.. ffs . she came out at full pelt. id have only had to be moving at about 1-2 miles an hour to have probably hit her she ran that close to me. I looked around for a sign of parents i think i might have got out and gone mad at them.
I guess realy you could say im very lucky.. i didnt get caught with no mot.. i did get my mot today even though it failed. I managed to get my form to post office seconds before it closed so i ent gota go tomorrow. My pc is now free of viruses.. And most of all i didnt hit that little girl..
Anyway what started out as a very short intended post is now a long one..
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will, when the road you're trudging seems all uphill, when the funds are low and the debts are high, and you want to smile but you have to sigh, when care is pressing you down a bit - rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns. As everyone of us sometimes learns. And many a fellow turns about when he might have won had he stuck it out. Don't give up though the pace seems slow - you may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than it seems to a faint and faltering man; often the struggler has given up when he might have captured the victor's cup; and he learned too late when the night came down, how close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out - the silver tint of the clouds of doubt, and when you never can tell how close you are, it may be near when it seems afar; so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit - it's when things seem worst, you must not quit.
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Life is short..Live it sober to the fullest...One day at a time...
rob i feel the same way....sometimes i think that i am "crossed" but u know if i dwell on it?? it becomes my hihger power and i give it LIFE to use against ME........
so now i "ride out the bad karma" don't fight it, let it go, NON resistance for me means a "shorter sentence" and things just kinda work out in the end ...its like it has NO power if i get out of the way, and give it NOTHING, but non resistance.....AND
i also learn what old pain/grief i am having to discharge/ embrace/ let go, so i don't keep getting hit with the same shit over and over.......
i don't think anyone fought and resisted negative change more than i...i mean i **attacked** the karma and i just kept getting hit with more "bad hits" now?? i know as long as i am alive, they are going to come, so i am working on ME and my coping skills and way of PERCEIVING it.......and i know...the more i fight it the worse it gets.........relax...."ride it out" it goes away better and faster
... so far i havent had a drink today.. though i think that wont last very long..