I've made it -- ONE WHOLE WEEK!  and starting on my 8th day.  The first couple of days were rough.. now I wake up and see things in a whole new light.  I feel a whole lot better, and realize that it's worth it to keep sober.  Like for example, yesterday on Easter -- I would of been hung over (as I was for previous holidays) and waking up being sober for my daughter means the world.

On her 1st birthday, I remember I partied the night before.  I thought it was celebrating -- but the next day I was so hung over that I hardly had it together to start her celebration... I was running around like a chicken who lost it's head trying to get decorations up -- trying to hide the beer bottles.  What a waste.  I wish I had stopped drinking sooner -- I wish I had opened my eyes sooner.  But atleast I've done it now.

Little bit more about me -- 4 years ago now -- I was a cocaine/crack addict.  And I remember how tough it was to get rid of that nasty monkey on my back.  I attended some counselling sessions and eventually my cocaine buddies disappeared.  The same thing now ... in only one week .. my drinking buddies are slowly disappearing.  I feel confident that I'll beable to kick this habit because I've already succeeded in one addiction. I just can't wait until the next holiday were I can wake up sober and be there with a clear mind celebrating with family.

And even yesterday, we were out in the yard doing some cleaning... and it didn't even bother me not to have a beer (which I had grown accustom to).  Instead, I had a pepsi. 

Then, last night I had a dream that I had blown my sobriety.  I woke up devastated and feeling hung over.  I fell back asleep and then had another dream that someone called looking for their daughter because they thought she'd be at my house drinking.  And I told them on the phone that I didn't drink anymore. 

I spend my days.. mostly talking to my dad about my drinking.  He's an alcoholic who has quit for 21 years.  So, it's great that he can understand and give me the encouragement I need.  I told my dad wait until I'm sober for atleast a month before I tell mom.  She's the type of person that would be saying I should of quit sooner... your lucky you never lost your kid.  Which I think right now -- those type of words I don't need.

Anyway, feeling better than ever.  Having another good day.  But, I'm in the process of finishing up school (BA general) so I have to hit the books because I have two final exams this Saturday.  Whow-who -- be done school on Sunday.  Finally, feels like forever.  LOL.

P.S.  Doll -- LOL on the "freebie" and Toni thanks for telling me about the online big book.

Okay... another long one... sorry guys & gals.  LOL.  Have a good day.  Candace