I was just readin my very first post on this board... It was on the 6th feb.. Soo.. iv been on here for two months now..
I just wana thank everyone again.. For everything.. For welcoming me. For all your support. All the information.. For listening to me go on and on. For the reasurance you have offered me in the many ways that you have.. For kind of 'backing me up' .. helped me get into that first meeting it really did.. it helped me make the phone call that got the ball rolling to start with.
For giving me a place to come. For opening my eyes to this as a disease! For the love and friendship and care that emanates from these boards.
For every kind word that you have said and every bit of advice you have offered.
Ive made some good friends on these boards.. And.. well although i have been posting for 2 months.. its only VERY recently that i have started to feel apart of you all. As i realised when i said "us" in a post to Robert yesertday... I think thats when it kinda hit me..
Hmm not to go all soppy again.. ffs.. i hate it when i go all soppy ,, but tend to on here abit.. and especialy when im tired.. which i am again..
So anyway.. Thanx everyone..
Hope you all feel good about yourselves, you should do!
Rob, everything that you feel you have been given, you have given back threefold, believe me. You've been such a blessing for so many of us, watching and praying, and doin' the Old Lady Fuss n' Fume. Taking this journey with you has been so spiritually enlightening for me. Good good lessons in this for me.
Thank you for the pics! OMG, I woke up from the grandaddy of nightmares last night about two -thirty, and was in a full blown panic attack. Horrid. I wandered around, and then came in here and found the shots of those gorgeous eggs and watermelons--just sat and looked at them until I could calm down again. Thank you so much for sending them They really are beautiful, and they were such a help to me last night. Taking my mind off my panic, looking at them, and wondering how the day was going for you over there. See, you're even a gift when you aren't posting!!! LOL, Love Wren
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Funny, isn't it, how friends and a Power greater than ourselves can neutralize nightmares?
And I agree with Chris, when she said everything you have been given, you have given back three-fold. True, and from the heart.
And Amanda, hit the nail on the head when she said that to know you, is to Love you.
Even when you were Posting from a place of not being Sober, we could identify with all of that, that is EXACTLY where we all came from, so there was never a time, in my mind that you were not one of "us". So glad you feel that now. This is a "we" Program all the way. We really do stick together kind of like glue. We always support each other, in good days and bad days, it is kind of a known fact, that we understand each other in a way that makes our little groups,(speaking of the thousands of groups, collectively) like no other groups that I know of.
"Our common welfare should comes first, AA unity depends on it" But more than anything Rob, just want to tell how happy I am for you that you feel a part of us. And the miracles we are watching in your life, makes us give Thanks to God.
hey, Rob... AA has a principle about developing an 'attitude of gratitude',, your post really showed that and made me feel grateful too, for our Higher Power that is what is poured out in us in Love as we pour out the booze into the toilet.
I think the detoxing is easier for you this time,, because you did stay dry for the previous 7 days,, and are not quite as toxic as you were before,,, and this time you prepared for it and have a better frame of mind and feel our support as you are going through it... you have more hope that is motivation to stick with it this time.
love in recovery,
amanda
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
Hmm i got some stuff to do.. .. Hopefully going fishin tomorrow..