I'm an alchohic. I'm 22 years old and I've been a severe alcholic for about seven years. My parents, grandparents, uncles, etc... are also alcholics or were before they died. During these last few years I have hardly no memory of nothing and have been locked up for things I do not remember doing. I've been arrested for drunk in public nine times in three years and now I have a court date for something more serious. I hide liquor bottles all over the house so that nobody will take it from me and just recently at my construction job I bring beers and hide them in the woods to chug periodically during the day. I still live with my parents and most of my friends have given up on me. I am severly depressed and think that I would take my life if it were not for my 2 year old daughter who doesnt live with me. Sorry if my post was too long I just had to get this off my chest.
John, thanks for sharing and hopefully you have come to the right place and stay around for a while. Here at this forum you will find that you aren't alone. We all have the same thing in common. We are alcoholics who have a disease called "ALCOHOLISM."
You will find people here who are willing to help you. You will find people who care. May I suggest that you read some of the other posts here to check out what is going on and HOW it works. I also suggest that you try to identify with us and not compare. I'm sure you have done some things that I haven't done. I'm sure I have done some things that you haven't done. And, I'm sure that we both have done some of the same things.
There is a way out of the life that you are living today, and a new way to live, it is called AA.
Stick around and see if this place is the right place for you. Hope to see you sharing more and hopefully you get the help you need.
God bless.
Harry
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Thank you Harry and God bless you as well. I've never been to a real meeting but I'm trying to look one up from around my area. I hope it helps because I've hit rock bottom and I want to c hange my life and be a better father.
im still drinking, i stopped for 7days a few weeks ago but then started again..ffs. I havnt been to a meetin yet.. i was gona go yesterday but .. well i know it sounds like an excuse but the timing was wrong.. i had to sit around for too long and had a drink.. then i fell asleep.. Im thinking of going tonight.. well iv got to check that its on first.. cos i had too much last night my balls have kinda shrunk so i duno if ill make it there tonight..
Iv been arrested 4 times for drunk n disorderly and drunk n incapable etc.. well actualy the first one was criminal damage cos i kicked a car because i couldnt get any more drink, not a good idea when there is a van full of police about 25 yards away lol.. that was when i was 18. i havnt been in arrested for years now..
Anyway im not trying to steel your post just wanted to say hi etc,
Sounds like you should hang in there mate for your daughter if nothing else. Imagine seeing her in her first school play, watching her at school sports day,..what about when she is old enuf to throw her arms around you and tell you she loves you. And when she grows n gets her first boyfriend.. etc.. i dont know often you get to see her.. but if you are sober perhaps something could be sorted out. Maybe i sound like a hyprocrit seeing as im still drinking. Well I have not had a drink today .. yet..
I still live with my parents and im 29!!.. You are still really young and have plenty of life left if you can stop drinking.. My mum n dad drink too.
hi, Rob, harry, and Jwill,,, good thread,, i'm glad you're all here. I hope y'all get to a face 2 face soon too. Step by step, the recovery journey. The bottom is when we stop digging.
God bless you all,
amanda
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I've got some news for you. The truth of the matter whether you want to believe it or not is that if your alcoholism is causing you as many problems as you say it is, you can't really be there for anyone right now. How can you be a good father if all your doing is slowly killing yourself with the bottle.
I've been suicidal before due to alcohol and drugs and those were some tough times. I lost my girlfriend to suicide and that stuff still hurts to this day. When someone commits suicide it effects everyone around them. People feel responsible that they could not help in time. At least I do to a certain extent.
You have to worry about you right now. Get some help. Things do get better. This is a starting point. I'm glad you are talking about what you are going through. That's step one to me, admitting you have a problem. They say there are three possible outcomes from our drinking. Jails, institutions, and death. I've tried the first two and for a long time I really wished I was dead but that's obviously not my purpose in life.
Hi John. Good to read your post it is so brave to write all that stuff down and share it with us. As stated we are all alcoholics too and totally understand what you are going through. I have been arrested several times before for various drink related things including drink drive, I also have drunk at work at two previos jobs I had, how the hell I got away with it I will never know as I can smell drink on someone a mile off now!. You are very young and you have the rest of your life and your daughters life ahead of you. Try to get to a meeting the first time I admitted I was an alcoholic and talked to others who new what I was talking about was a turning point for me. Remember you are a worth while person and you have a disease BUT there is an answer people who get into recovery need never drink again. But I do know how bloody hard it is but never give up Hope. God bless you and all the best of luck, keep posting to let us know how you are. All my thoughts are with you. Love Trudi.
Welcome John, I'm glad you are here. I hope you find an AA meeting in your area soon...tonight, tomorrow. Today is the only day we truly have and I have found that my life is so much better sober.Please keep coming here, reading and posting.
When I first got to the program, I was 23 years old and had a 5 year old daughter. If it wasn't for her, I probabely would not have admitted that I had a problem. In my family we had a few alcoholics. Yep. My father, my step-father, my great-grandfather and my grandfather. All where from different branches of my family. Well, I am the only one of four girls in my family that has been found to have a problem with alcohol and other things.
But, I am here to tell you, You are Home. A.A. will give you the comfort, attention and unconditional love that you will need on your new journey to freedom of the control that Alcohol or any other substance that is wrecking your life. You don't have to drink anymore. All you have to have is the Will to Not Drink. Pick up that phone and call A.A.. I promise someone will come and get you to help you.
As for your 2 Year Old Precious Baby. Well, she needs you to teach her how to be strong and how to be the best that she can be. You know, she doesn't ever have to see Her Daddy drunk ever again. Just as long as Daddy doesn't pcik up that first drink. Pick up your phone and call them.
Just a Suggestion: Don't drink for 30 days. Got to as many meetings as you can. You don't have to say a word, if you don't want to. Try it. If you don't want what we have, we will gladly refund you your misery. But, we prefer it if you stick around, No Matter What.
The only Requirement for Membership is the Desire to Stop Drinking. That's All. The rest is up to you.
God Bless You. You're on the Top of My Prayers Tonight.
PS (You are the most important person on this Webiste for me tonight.)
Thank you for being there for me. You've helped me to not pick up that first drink, Just For Today.
Julie Dene
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((((((((((John))))))))) good morning. My children too have made me want to be better and to stop drinking at times,but mostly I had to stop drinking for me because I wanted to be better.
I would suggest some sort of treatment along with AA. Sounds like your in need of lots of help and it's OK, because with lots of help we get better and feel better sooner. Talk to your doctor to see if they can help you,call a drug and alcohol hot line to see what they can do for you. Your so young and have a who life ahead of you. I was just 25 when I first came into the program. I'm now 42. I have not been sober that long for having to go out again and see if drinking was any better. It was not LOL. I have almost 2 years now and I'v grown alot. I'v seen troubled times these past two years,but I'v been a part of good times too. Good luck and keep posting!
Thank you guys for replying to me and it sounds like you really care and know where I'm coming from. Unfortunately, I drank a half gallon of Jim Beam shortly after posting and woke up in the swinging chiair in my yard again. But reading these posts has atleast gave me motivation for the day to stay sober and I called up my daughters mother and she is dropping her off at my house shortly. I havn't seen her for two weeks and I'm happy as hell. Thank you again and thanks for understanding.
