Well tomorrow is looking like it will be a nightmare... looks like i might be in shit at work.. though its not really my fault..
been chattin with friend on phone tonight.. talking bout work. she aggrees with me that its so hard working with guy im currently working with..
tomorrow is probably gona be a nightmare..
hes a great laugh but hes not prepard to work and its looking bad on me.. at mo im takin everything on my shoulders.. short staffed.. and guy im working with doesnt work. and im carrying him.. its f***ing me off.. big time.. hes a great laugh.. a nice guy but he's 16 and doesnt give a shit about anything...
i am thinking of going to a meetin tomorrow night.. im not sure..
so much is on my mind at the moment.. and im expecting, after forwarning from good friend at work that im/we are gona get a "bollocking" for not working enuf and messing about.. and its not totaly my fault.. so hard to explain..
Cos im drinking at night.. though im giving it my all at work.. and omg.. cos work is so complicated i cant focus my mind to be able to tell manager everthing thats going on..BRAIN OVERLOAD..
its not my fault that the work hasnt been so forth coming and people at work understand that. manager does not.. because of bloody brown nosed, sad insecure woman who has to go running 'to teacher'.. manager does not understand situation and im gona get some of the blame for lack of work.. yet work is such a nightmare at the moment.. and as i said guy. youngster im working with doesnt give a shit.. nothing is gettin done..
I wana explain my position. even though to me its f***ing obviouse.. iv gota explain my position to manager but cos of work and my current situation i feel like my brain has melted..!!..
Arrghh im dreading tomorrow.. I guess i just want some support tonight.. some people to belive in me... ffs.. im so fed up of work etc.. along with everything.. ffs..
That's how I felt yesterday!!!! Try and take it easy. Let tomorrow work itself out however it's going to. Stay in today. What can you do about your problems right now, not tomorrow, not yesterday, but right now. Chances are not much. I'm really hoping you keep going to meetings. I guarantee if you keep going to meetings things will work out. Maybe not your way but they will work out. It sounds to me like you know what needs to be done. Take care and keep posting.
Hi Rob. Simple, cover your arse, If the new bloke is a lazy git, then bin him. DON'T cover for other peoples mistakes especially if it drops you in it. Nobody deserves to work with a bad co-worker when the blame is shared, even more so when you are in the senior position and take all the s**t.
Get rid of the staff, and go to shell! just watch you don't meet any of the broken whisky bottles that I used to leave on the beach!
Best wishes
Chris
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hmmm.. 16... that's a kid. How old are you? hmmm all his fault , eh? sure. the manager doesn't understand how funny the kid is? and why there is no work being done? the manager insists that the work get done? is that unreasonable or what? gonna get the consequences tomorrow, and want some enabling? sounds like a Step 1 coming up.... 'my life has become unmanageable'. Yeah.. you could get the kid shafted,, but then,, you'd probably really have to get some work done after that. Sorry, no enabling going on from this one. My suggestion,,, chalk it up,,, go to the meeting,,, start your recovery as soon as possible,,, maybe the manager would be impressed by that.. amends.
love in recovery,
amanda
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Don't give up on the idea about getting to a meeting, Rob, no matter what the outcome with your boss.
If he gets to the heart of the problem, based on what you told us, it should all work out. Whether you are feeling really good at the end of the day, or really bad, an AA meeting is a great place to work through that.
As tough as confrontation may be for you, if your young co-worker is not carrying his share, you aren't doing yourself or him any favors, if you don't tell him. Again, an AA meeting is a good place to talk this out.
Finally, the only other advice I can give, is that in the AA program, we learn that the only thing we can truly fix, is ourselves. The more we focus on what we can do better, and on what we can do to help others, the more amazed we are with the success that comes sneaking up on us. Try that meeting, Rob, and you won't regret it.
(((((((((((Rob))))))))))), I have a 15 year old daughter who is wild. I'm getting into trouble for not calling the police on her when she went out without my permission. I cannot control her, I cannot help her,I cannot be her,but I can be me and do what I need to do in order to survive. I have to accept what I did or did not do about the situation at the time. Once I accept that I have to do all the things people are telling me to do because they are the consequences of my lack of action, it's not so much as a struggle any more. I'm still angry and it's I feel like it's so unfair that my daughter is the one who went out and is not obaying the rules and I get punished,but I have looked at my part in it as hard as that is for anyone to do. It's like swollowing a bitter pill,but it will go down if I don't fight it.
So take the situation your in,remember your the adult or at least older than the 16 year old,accept that today will be hell and look forward to that meeting. We are all behind you 100% with you going to that meeting. There is only so much a recovery board can do for an active person. Meeting people face to face will help you so much Rob. Your not going to your death by going to a meeting, your stepping into a new way of life that will help you stay sober and perhaps grow up a bit.
I spent just about my entire life blaming everybody else for the way my life was running. Let me see here....now if only the boss would catch this joker, then maybe he would see why no work is getting done. Why should I do anything about it? I'm not the one paying him. If the boss would only get rid of this kid then maybe he would see just how hard I do work. It isn't right that Iget my ass chewed out because of what someone else is doing.
These are just some of the thoughts that would be running through my head if I was still drinking. Ya, poor, poor, poor, me, wah, wah, wah, now pour me another drink. I wonder if any of you people who work with this kid, that provides so many laughs, have explained to him that his fooling around is effecting all of you that work with him.
I only drink at night, but when I wake up in the morning I feel the effects from drinking the night before. I wonder if that might have some effect on my work the next day also? Boy, I put up with so much BS at work, I deserve to drink when I get home. Matter of fact, I need to drink after work because I am so uptight from the days hassels. I'll show the boss, I'm going to get get smucked.
Any of this sound familiar? I go to meetings and come to places like this because I have a drinking problem. I found out that once I put the drink down, a lot of these problems didn't occur again, or I learned how to handle them properly.
Neither I or anybody else can tell you that you have a drinking problem. Neither, do we know if you have a drinking problem. Only you know that. Since you come here to these forums, I can only presume that you might have a drinking problem
One suggestion though. Why don't you try going to some AA meetings, try listening, and try to identify instead of compare.
And I'll leave you with this...."Don't worry about tomorrow, Gods already been there."
God bless.
Harry
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Well i have made another post.. saying stuff at work is ... well manager had us in office and had ... a discusion with both of us, the 16y/o actualy said the lack of work was mainly his fault due to talking etc... manager talked to him.. when that meetin was over i actualy stayed in with manager when other dude went back and i got alot off my chest, its hard to explain situatoin without going into masses of detail but basicaly due to other colleages sickness it has been me and this dude and iv been running it, hes been there like 6 months.. iv been working my ass off, like you i only drink at night.. in the week anyway, its been a realy tough week and other bloke has been a real struggle.. .. i asked my boss if he had any idea what it was like trying to get other dude to work, he said no and asked me to tell him .. he was alittle suprised and not entirely happy when i explained what dude was like to work with. I said i had got the impression that he was mad at both of us.. he said "no not really".. and that he was very pleased with my work and everything i was doing and to keep him posted bout dude and he was gona keep trying to catch dude out so he could really come down on him to sort him out..
I dont usualy feel im gona drink and to hell with them.. cos i am likely to drink anyway.. But i could relate to some of what you were saying.
I am gona go to a meeting.. im really not sure when yet.. i did make another post last night explainging bout yesterday and how i didnt make it to a meeting.. sounds like excuses.. but i really did wana go yesterday.. it was just the fact i had too much time in the evening to kill beforehand.
I do have a problem with drink, i hate saying the word.....(pauses for time) Alcoholic... hmm i think thats the first time iv ever posted that word about me on these pags.. I do need to stop drinking.. I have not had a drink today... yet... I cant avoid going to the offi tonight because i have two dvds to return.. I can really see myself drinking tonight.. and not going to a meeting..and i guess if i do that i will then wake up feelin crappy again tomorroww.
I've read your postings on this subject. Alcohol is not going to make you feel better. I can promise you this. It will make you feel like crap every time that you drink. Believe me, I know. You see, your working step 1 and don't even reallize it. Get a clue.
Get your Butt to a Meeting. Go as soon as you wake up. There's no excuse.
You sit here and gripe that your having a hard time with someone else and truely what your problem is you and no body else. I deal with personalities all day long, but I have to remind myself, Prinipals before Personalities. Plus, I have to be of service to Anyone to stay sober. It really helps, because us Alcoholics are selfish and not only do we have to deal with our own problems, but everyone else's short comings seem to affect us. The kid is only 16 and is trying to find themselves as adults. Maybe, you should be helping this person, instead of slashing them on their shortcomings.
I don't know. Just Don't Drink No Matter What. At Least Not For Today. You see, we only have Today. Tomorrow may never come. And the same for Tomorrow, when it becomes Today. Just Don't Drink Today. Keep It Simple Stupid.. LOL!!!
Had 9 Years, Drank for Another 5, Got 4 Months Today. NEVER HAD IT SO GOOD......
THANK GOD FOR A.A.
Julie Dene (Signal Hill, California)
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Hi Rob,