Today I took action against a disease that wants me dead. I started my IOP and contributed my thoughts and received relief. I have a couple of sober friends on their way to see me and I feel good about myself today. This is improvement!!! I'm trying my best to stay in the here and now. So far so good! I don't feel so good physically, darn cold! I would take a cold over waking up sick from alcohol and drugs any day! I have nothing to complain about today. I'm just posting so I can feel like part of instead of the alternative. Thankyou everyone for your support and I hope to get to know my new support family here better in the future. Well my friend just called and he's almost here so all I have to say is recovery is good!!!
It's so good to hear from you again. It does sound like you are doing what needs to be done, or better yet, what you also seem to want to have happen in your life. All of us are always here for ups and downs, so please keep us (pardon the pun) posted. Blessings, WRen
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Funny, isn't it, how friends and a Power greater than ourselves can neutralize nightmares?
Just want to add a welcome, and congratulations on your efforts. This is the hard part, the beginning. And it only get better, and better. And you were right, you are here with us and now part of this little Recovery Forum. Forgive me, but I do not know what IOP stands for, will you let me know. And you said you have some Sober Friends coming over. Sounds like you have also found some meetings? is that Right? So WELCOME, WELCOME, WELCOME!!!
It stands for intensive out patient. It's the counseling I'm going to for my dual diagnosis. You were the only person that knew what dual diagnosis means when you responded to my first post. I'm going through alot of up's and down's but life could be worse. I am no longer in denial about it because for along time I only thought alcohol and drugs were my problem. It turns out I was self medicating for other problems as well. I made a meeting tonight on acceptance, what a wonderful topic (sarcasm). I needed to hear the message. I don't like accepting people, places, and things in my life but I have no choice. It's part of the process of getting sober whether I like it or not. I feel loved today. Two friends drove a long way just to go to a meeting with me and chat for a few hours and that means alot to someone (me) who has trouble loving himself. I find meetings and these rooms here very therapeutic to my recovery. Helps me to get out of myself.
Just wanted you to know that , what you about now being apart of is so right on. We are all here together. The Program taught me how to being to learn Trust, It began with learning how to trust myself, and then learning how to Trust others. But it does happen, For me it was in the 12 steps of this Program, the true way out of this Disease.
Just hold on, thats is how it worked for me. Holding on for dear life, is how I remember it. And then the Promises that are in the AA Book, can and do come true. I think it was Paul that made a Post yesterday, but here they are again. God Bless.
Promises...
"If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them." -Book AA, pg 83
Justin....it sounds like you are doing what you need to do, keeping your mind in the right place...recovery. Sticking close to your friends that are sober and working a program, posting here. When those thoughts creep in call your sponsor, post here...get to a meeting.How long will you be in the IOP counseling?
