Sometimes we think we're supposed to have more recovery under our belts. Perhaps we feel the need to impress our peers with our success in staying off mind-altering chemicals. But perhaps we are really just trying to convince ourselves. We know how difficult recovery is, and surely our Higher Power is not fooled by our pretense of well being.
If we try to hide our problems, we cannot get help for them. To get help we must tell people where we're really at. No one can read a closed book.
Am I open with others?
Higher Power, help me believe in the saying, "Ask and you shall receive."
When I first came into the program I had many walls, a fortress around me. Now I have boundries, I can move them anyway I need to for my saftey, for my sobriety. I don't want walls anymore because when they are there no one can approach me...no one can touch me.Now I have tools to help me figure out who is safe and who isn't.Who's toxic and who's not.I can still communicate with these peple...but there is a boundry.
Did the walls come down suddenly, No.. a piece here , a chunk there....one step at a time.