with all this help ,talking ,and understanding,and wisdom why can i not compute it today evry thing in me say to scream i love you ,you stupid bitchbut icant do it alone inside i know she doesnt want it to end anymore than i did/do .butt i just cant seem to stop thinking about them what are they doing ?are they missing me ?are they happier with out me ?how does one turn that focus else where?how do i express what im feeling when my every thopught flips from just giving up and taking that drink to its all good hp is going to show me i just wish i could think about something else ,thank god im working outside the house tommorrow
phil AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
She goes a bit insane some days...runs all over the place...trys to jump out windows...through the glass...meows constantly...whew!!...got her into Catnip Anonymous...
They told me that shes not going to get calmed down overnight...
And the next meeting is at my place....gotta run out for MeowMix...and kitty litter boxes..
Thank God..for Alanon..
Something like an alky...yu take away the booze...and it takes a number of days for everything to kinda get on an even kneel of some kind..if we just keep things simple..and dont drink..
We didnt get the way we were overnight....
Dont know bout you buddy..but I was right out to lunch...still can be..
Time takes time..and some days...the best reaction..is NO REACTION..
Just keep breathin.:)
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Life is short..Live it sober to the fullest...One day at a time...
Use the tools you have RIGHT now to get you thru this. We do not know what we do not know and projecting is not a good thing for this old alkie girl. It WILL get better with time. When I first got sober all I had was prayer in my little "AA tool box" and that is what I used until I "got" something else, and then I used both..... As time goes on I continue to "acquire" more "tools" and I'm learning which ones I need to use to take care of the job at hand.......
the most important thing is DON'T DRINK NO MATTER WHAT.....
Hang on, my friend, just hang on.
Love and hugs
heeerrrre kitty, kitty, kitty ~ poor kitty cat !
-- Edited by Doll at 14:50, 2006-02-27
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* We eventually realize that just as the pains of alcoholism had to come before sobriety, emotional turmoil comes before serenity. *
Sometimes it's just not good to be alone period> When I'm home alone, I'm sometimes alone your with a raving looneatick. Just gotta leave and go anywhere. We can make ourselfs nuts.
SELF SELF SELF----Gotta get out of me and my problems.
Yeah,, midwinter,, alone in the house... stir crazy... acting like Phil's cat. Another thing is,,, when we stop drinking.. all the reasons why we were drinking are still there,, and we don't know how to cope with them now. Yes,, use what coping skills you have,, and continue your recovery in learning more and better ones to replace the drinking or just stewing. I forgot why you're not going to meetings?
You're in my prayers, 'do your best and God does the rest',
things don't always happen the way we want them to, but,, when we are moving ahead one Step at a time, and trusting God,,, sometimes things surprisingly work out later in ways that we couldn't think of and that are really best in the long run.
love in recovery,
amanda
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