I'm seeing my girlfriend in Canada in a few days, and I thought I'd stop drinking, she thinks I've stopped drinking.
I haven't, I still sometimes buy a bottle of wine, and a couple of cans a day, I know it's not lots, compared to some people, but I want it to stop!
I want to be good for her, and stable, and honest, and nice, and loving.
I want to live longer for her, and I'm so scared I'm going to let her dowbn by slipping back into my old ways.
I was in a car crash, and it all went wrong from there, I discovered red wine stopped me hurting.
Sorry for the rant, I just, I want to be good for her, she's amazing, and I'm not a bad person, I hope.
Don't really know what I'm asking, I've never asked for help before.. just, I'm sat here fully dressed ready to go down to the off-license and I don't want to give in to it!
Just an encouraging word would do, I know I should be doing this for her, and I am doing, it's all for her.
I'm just so scared I'll let her down, and myself. :(
Hi Crumbs, I'm Chris and I'm an alcoholic. Everyone here has been in a similar situation to yourself at one time or another. Just take it one minute at a time, find something to occupy yourself so that you don't think about going to the shop. Think also about the advantages of stopping drinking, and the problems accociated with continuing.
Best of luck to you, you can do it if you want to.
Bye for now.
Chris.
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It's just seems such a mammoth task, even though I know that it's worth it I find myself drinking, when for the last four hours I've promised myself I wouldn't.
Thanks for replying, I'm sitting here now knitting and trying to ignore it, even though my jiggling leg's interfering with the loops :).
Welcome to the board Crumbs, Chris is right, I have been in the same frame of mind,keep busy and don't go to the store. Have you checked into going to AA meetings in your town, look the number up and give them a call.
It's great that you want to stop drinking, and you can do it for your girlfriend...but most of all do it for you...cause you are worth it.Keep coming here, read and post.There is so much experience, strength and hope here.This is a one day at a time program, if you don't drink today you are sucessful.
Is that a whole bottle of wine a day? what size? plus a couple of cans of beer? what size? and now you have the shakes cuz you're starting withdrawals? or am i misunderstanding. It might not be as easy to get off it suddenly. But if you've got a few days, you should be feeling better in a few days.
I'm glad you want to do it,,, I hope that you also want to do it for yourself.. it is okay to love yourself enough to want to do what is good for you. I think you don't have to say anything,, but not to lie either,, do your best,, and if she loves you she will be supportive of your efforts,, and it may be because she loves you that she is wanting you to stop drinking.
Red wine is my favorite too. Ya know what? When I am going moment by moment,, it helps me to do good reading. There are posts here with links to the Big Book, and links to the 12 Step and 12 Tradition book. That would do to things for you.. you would learn more about what alcohol does to you, what the AA program is and how it helps, and help the time pass. And you are welcome to keep posting here too.
God bless you,
amanda
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I joined this site about 3 weeks or more ago..might have been 4 i forget.. I know how you feel about not wanting to give in but doing so anyway.. Iv done that so many times.. Iv been in my room with my coat on pasing back and forth for like 20 minutes or more arguing with myself ..and somtimes iv literaly ran down to the offi and he was just about to lock up.. and iv just made it.. other times i have resisted... its very difficult.. I have been dry now for 1 week.... last saturday was the last time i drank.. The first few nights and days can be a nightmare.. i didnt drink during the day.. but when i stopped drinkng id find myself very easily irritated durin the day.. I found taking a mild herbal relaxant, i use Kalms, helped me a great deal, they dont affect your mental perception or give you any kinda of high.. they simply help you to stay more calm, which i found to be a great help both for at night and durin the day.. The first few nights i didnt get much sleep and id wake up soaked in sweat.. But im sleeping more relaxed now.. and things are on the up..
You can do it mate, you really can.. I keep thinking that any day now im gona slip back into it.. like its just waiting to happen but i havent drank tonight so i know tomorrow i wont have a hang over, i will have more self respect and more self confidence.. and more of a smile on my face.. I can actualy justify myself smiling.
Is it at all possible to talk to your girlfriend about this, would she be the sort of person you could confide in and show understanding and patience.. How good would that feel for you if you could work through it together... If this isnt the case then you can still do it mate.. You've just go to want to bad enuf and try to focus. Like i say i dont know how long im gona hold inthere.. but im gona keep on trying and if i fall off im gona try to get back on again..
Some of the people iv spoken to on this site are so nice and so supportive.. You really dont have to feel you are going through it alone.. ..
A week ago i was mailin people from this site sayin i was in a bad way and ..well to be honesti cant even remember what i said cos i was so drunk.. but now, a week later about the same time, i am on here postin to you with a sober head..
Good luck mate, hang in there and let us know how you are doing..
hey, Rob! There you are! and Congratulations on your week!! And I'm glaad you're starting to feel better now. Hey,,, don't worry about how long,,, just take it for now,,, a minute at a time, a day at a time... an hour at a time... you can do it for just another minute, eh? just another hour? How about going to a meeting?
love in recovery,
amanda
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Hi Crumbs, Yes Calm Tabs or other Homeopathic Remedies. Green Tea with Honey & Lemon. Or sit here all night and read and post. During Meeting Hours, sit in the meetings. Just try it for 30 days, beleive me. After 30 days you will feel like a new man. The trick is go to Meetings, it'll get you out of the house. Plus, they may give you more ideas. Definitely get the Big Book and read it. It will tell you some of the experiences of alcoholics and what they went through and how the dealt with it all. It gives great suggestions.
But, you need to do this for yourself. She seems to be the part of the Attraction to Getting Sober. Talk to her about it. If she's the true woman that you are talking about, she will not only appreciate your honesty, but guaranteed that she will be very sensitive to you. That's how Real Women are.
Good Luck to You and thanks for sharing with us. It definitely helped me get out of my head.
Julie Dene
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A Head Full of AA and a Belly Full of Alcohol does not mix. I tried.
I'm seeing my girlfriend in Canada in a few days, and I thought I'd stop drinking, she thinks I've stopped drinking..........I want it to stop! I want to be good for her... I haven't, I still sometimes buy a bottle of wine, and a couple of cans a day, I know it's not lots, compared to some people
If you are an alcoholic, you can NOT quit FOR someone else, however they can be a good motivation. I went to AA for someone else, I STAYED for ME.
Alcoholics are not "bad" people trying to be "good" we are "sick" people trying to heal.
It's not HOW MUCH you drink, it's how it makes you FEEL.
Best help I know of, your local chapter of AA. CALL THEM, if you really want to stop drinking.
You're in my prayers.
Doll
-- Edited by Doll at 09:23, 2006-02-26
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Welcome Crumbs, its true you need to want to give up for yourself. I totally understand I have had so many days I have got up with the intention of not drinking but have ended up on my face again! to non alcoholics its simple 'dont drink' but unfortunately its not that simple (although not having a drink one day at a time is a good start!) try out AA it has helped me no end although I am still only a few days away from my last drink (this time round!) but I am not going to give up giving up! I just see every day I dont have a drink as being a successful day! Good Luck, keep posting, we all understand. Love Trudi
And I'm glaad you're starting to feel better now. Hey,,, don't worry about how long,,, just take it for now,,, a minute at a time, a day at a time... an hour at a time... you can do it for just another minute, eh? just another hour? How about going to a meeting? 