AS FAR AS DRINKING

I DRANK TO CELEBRATE A GOOD DAY AND WASH AWAY A BAD DAY OR MOMENT.. I DRANK JUST BECAUSE I LIKED TO DRINK.....  I DID ACID, HOWEVER I THINK THIS BOARD IS FOR ALCOHOL.  ADDICTION IS ADDICTION TO SOME DEGREE..  I NEVER HAD ANY ADDICTIVE FEELINGS OR CRAVINGS FOR ACID.  I CAN  ONLY RELATE TO ALCOHOL

Well, now,,, acid is not a narcotic either...  a narcotic is like heroin,,,,  meth is not a narcotic either..   we going to split hairs here?   Many groups say that alcohol is a chemical and narcotics are chemicals and meth is a chemical,,  caffeine is a chemical and tobacco is a chemical.   We chemical abusers tend to abuse more than one thing.  I would be going to 6 different groups if we held to that strict attitude. Right now chocolate would be my main one.

Do check out NA,,  but then that makes a few of us that should go to NA also,, not just you.

About triggers,,  yeah,, we can have that monkey jump on our backs all of a sudden by surprise. My cravings for alcohol come , my cravings for chocolate, cigarettes mostly when I'm not expecting it,, but when I look back I can see why.  Janis Joplin is the singer that I most relate to associating with my stinking thinking that starts me drinking.  The Doors does it for a lot of people. I have to be careful what kind of movies I watch, and music I play,,,  cuz if I really get into certain types it can affect me very strongly. One of the songs that I caught myself being into that let me know I needed to go back into recovery was 'Drift Away'. I can go on a trip with music.

I'm really glad that a lot of you are only problematic with alcohol, and don't smoke, or have to have your morning coffee, and never did pot or anything. Me,, it seems whatever I do I tend to obsess on and then get compulsive. I guess that's another group still, eh?  OCD anonymous

love in recovery,

amanda

Hi Ashley,

a Bad Day - Solution: Get Drunk

A Good Day - Celebrate: Get Drunk

An agrument with my husband - Solution: Get Drunk

Having a real Loving Day with my husband - Celebrate: Get Drunk

An Argument with my Step Son - Solution: Get Drunk

A good day with my Step Son - Celebrate: Get Drunk

Really Bad Weather - Solution: Get Drunk

A really Beautiful Day - Celebrate: Get Drunk

Too much House Work - Solution: Get Drunk

A really Clean, Orderly House - Celebrate: Get Drunk

Serious Health Problem - Solution: Get Drunk

Returned to Better Health - Celebrate: Get Drunk

Miss my Children - Solution: Get Drunk

Children come for a 2 week visit - Celebrate: Get Drunk

Really worried about my Drinking - Solution: Get Drunk

Now I think I am in early Recovery: - Celebrate: Get Drunk

Lost my Job - Solution: Get Drunk

Offerred a Really Wonderful and Better New Job- Celebrate: Get Drunk

Cannot Stop Drinking and Blacking out - Solution: Suicide

Failed Suicide Attempts - Solution: Get Drunk

3rd and Final Suicide Attempt - Failed

Finally, a giving up, and surrending to God, asking Him to show me a Different Way.

Compulsion to Drink Leaves, meetings begin, every day, sitting there with a commitment to

Not Drink, even if my Ass falls off, (feels like it already has)

Recovery in AA begins, the Door does not keep swinging Open for me, after 10 years, I think the

Swinging Door Hinges are Broken.  Can't seem to find a reason to leave.

Get A Temporary Sponsor, begin the Steps,  small baby steps, with new Sponsor.

Sit and Read the First Step, the first Part, then look at the second part of the 1st Step when I am able to look at the  devastation I have caused due to my getting Drunk, on a daily basis.

Read the first 164 Pages of the AA Big Book, see myself in that book, over and over and over, Brings a lot of Comfort to me, that I am not alone.

Put my ass in chair everyday, for 1 year, experienced a True Miracle, I did not Drink for an entire year, I had previously convinced myself that I was one of those Hopeless Alcoholics, (seemed to be confirmed by the looks I got over those first 10 years). And I did not drink, a Miracle.

Worked those Steps to the best of my ability, the fourth one I took with a Professional, made it through the 5th Step with him.

Continue to work the steps , and when I don't, they seem to work me.

Life is good today, and do understand that my Sobriety is Based on my Spiritual Condition.

Loose that, or forget that, and believe I would have to get drunk all over again.  Meetings are

where I go to get that Spiritual Nutrition, Pray on my own a lot, but it is Validated in the Meetings I attend, of  God,  of my understanding.

Ashley, I just wanted to show you the Laundry List of Reasons I drank, threw The List Out when I could see that those reasons were not the Reason I got Drunk.

I have a Terminal illness, that I get a Daily Reprive with, by following the Suggestions, and Helping others that come in with Their Laundry List.

So this was a rather Long Welcome,  But Welcome to this Miracles in Progress 12 Step Forum.

My take on Drugs and Alcohol.......A Drug...... is a Drug.............is a Drug.  So many ways to leave the present moment.

Toni

Hi Again Ashley,

You probably wondered why I didnt refer to your Drug use.

When I went through a Recovery Home in the bay area, there was a woman that were coming of of a $500.00 a day heroin habit, 2 woman coming off of meth,  some coming off of cocaine, and about 50 per cent of us coming off of Alcohol.

So, I acknowledge that I may not be correct here, but I was only offering my ES&H. to you, when I drank, I would use any drug, lots of marijana, lots of Cocaine, any mood altering Pills. You name it, I did it.  I never used heroin, I was too frightened of it.

In my home group, later in my life, I saw the same thing, people that had a Preference for Pot, some Acid, some Pills,  I do not draw the distinction, for myself, because every program uses the 12 steps, as a way out of any addiction.

So, hope today is a better day for you, and like Amamda, I stay away from Mood Altering Music too. I might not drink over it, but I will slip into kind of an isolated mood if I listen.

Wishing you the best,

Toni