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has been a rough day. i had a good day, so it was suprising that i wanted to use. i was listening to music and the doors came on, and all i wanted to do was acid. its weird though because i usually only want to use when ive had a bad day, and today was good. i hung out with the guy i like, i was with my best friend all day, and i had a really nice night. i know that triggereing events happen when you least expect them and when you dont think you could possibly want to use, but today came as a shock to me

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AS FAR AS DRINKING


I DRANK TO CELEBRATE A GOOD DAY AND WASH AWAY A BAD DAY OR MOMENT.. I DRANK JUST BECAUSE I LIKED TO DRINK.....  I DID ACID, HOWEVER I THINK THIS BOARD IS FOR ALCOHOL.  ADDICTION IS ADDICTION TO SOME DEGREE..  I NEVER HAD ANY ADDICTIVE FEELINGS OR CRAVINGS FOR ACID.  I CAN  ONLY RELATE TO ALCOHOL



-- Edited by Rick at 07:32, 2006-02-25

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Hi AshleyKathryn, I'm Dan and I'm an alcoholic.  Welcome to the forum.  I'm glad you found us.


We who have the mentality for alcohol and drug abuse, will always have to be on guard for "stinkin' thinkin".  As it says in the Big Book, our affliction is "cunning, baffling, powerful".


This link is to the Miracles In Progress page which has a number of link options for Narcotics Anonymous- http://www.12stepforums.net/recoverylinks.html  (in case you haven't seen it yet).


 



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Well, now,,, acid is not a narcotic either...  a narcotic is like heroin,,,,  meth is not a narcotic either..   we going to split hairs here?   Many groups say that alcohol is a chemical and narcotics are chemicals and meth is a chemical,,  caffeine is a chemical and tobacco is a chemical.   We chemical abusers tend to abuse more than one thing.  I would be going to 6 different groups if we held to that strict attitude. Right now chocolate would be my main one.


Do check out NA,,  but then that makes a few of us that should go to NA also,, not just you.


About triggers,,  yeah,, we can have that monkey jump on our backs all of a sudden by surprise. My cravings for alcohol come , my cravings for chocolate, cigarettes mostly when I'm not expecting it,, but when I look back I can see why.  Janis Joplin is the singer that I most relate to associating with my stinking thinking that starts me drinking.  The Doors does it for a lot of people. I have to be careful what kind of movies I watch, and music I play,,,  cuz if I really get into certain types it can affect me very strongly. One of the songs that I caught myself being into that let me know I needed to go back into recovery was 'Drift Away'. I can go on a trip with music.


I'm really glad that a lot of you are only problematic with alcohol, and don't smoke, or have to have your morning coffee, and never did pot or anything. Me,, it seems whatever I do I tend to obsess on and then get compulsive. I guess that's another group still, eh?  OCD anonymous


love in recovery,


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Hi AshleyKathryn,


My cravings weren't so much cravings I guess but a lifestyle.  I drank, ate, did drugs...everything but smoke... every day for a long time.  I wanted to do it every day ... all the time.  Once I went to my first meeting I never wanted to drink or do drugs again.  I realize that this is not the case for everyone... I've been lucky but have to be on my guard.  And notice that I didn't say the cravings for food stopped... I'm now diabetic and I know what cravings are...Like Amanda, I love chocolate... any kind of sugar.. and I battle with it  daily. 


I know... I know... there are OA sites out there... but to me it all kind of blends together at some point... All right.. all right... I'm off to an OA site!  Enough already... geez... LOL   Mike in Boston



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Hi Ashley,


a Bad Day - Solution: Get Drunk


A Good Day - Celebrate: Get Drunk


An agrument with my husband - Solution: Get Drunk


Having a real Loving Day with my husband - Celebrate: Get Drunk


An Argument with my Step Son - Solution: Get Drunk


A good day with my Step Son - Celebrate: Get Drunk


Really Bad Weather - Solution: Get Drunk


A really Beautiful Day - Celebrate: Get Drunk


Too much House Work - Solution: Get Drunk


A really Clean, Orderly House - Celebrate: Get Drunk


Serious Health Problem - Solution: Get Drunk


Returned to Better Health - Celebrate: Get Drunk


Miss my Children - Solution: Get Drunk


Children come for a 2 week visit - Celebrate: Get Drunk


Really worried about my Drinking - Solution: Get Drunk


Now I think I am in early Recovery: - Celebrate: Get Drunk


Lost my Job - Solution: Get Drunk


Offerred a Really Wonderful and Better New Job- Celebrate: Get Drunk


Cannot Stop Drinking and Blacking out - Solution: Suicide


Failed Suicide Attempts - Solution: Get Drunk


3rd and Final Suicide Attempt - Failed


Finally, a giving up, and surrending to God, asking Him to show me a Different Way.


Compulsion to Drink Leaves, meetings begin, every day, sitting there with a commitment to


Not Drink, even if my Ass falls off, (feels like it already has)


Recovery in AA begins, the Door does not keep swinging Open for me, after 10 years, I think the


Swinging Door Hinges are Broken.  Can't seem to find a reason to leave.


Get A Temporary Sponsor, begin the Steps,  small baby steps, with new Sponsor.


Sit and Read the First Step, the first Part, then look at the second part of the 1st Step when I am able to look at the  devastation I have caused due to my getting Drunk, on a daily basis.


Read the first 164 Pages of the AA Big Book, see myself in that book, over and over and over, Brings a lot of Comfort to me, that I am not alone.


Put my ass in chair everyday, for 1 year, experienced a True Miracle, I did not Drink for an entire year, I had previously convinced myself that I was one of those Hopeless Alcoholics, (seemed to be confirmed by the looks I got over those first 10 years). And I did not drink, a Miracle.


Worked those Steps to the best of my ability, the fourth one I took with a Professional, made it through the 5th Step with him.


Continue to work the steps , and when I don't, they seem to work me.


Life is good today, and do understand that my Sobriety is Based on my Spiritual Condition.


Loose that, or forget that, and believe I would have to get drunk all over again.  Meetings are


where I go to get that Spiritual Nutrition, Pray on my own a lot, but it is Validated in the Meetings I attend, of  God,  of my understanding.


Ashley, I just wanted to show you the Laundry List of Reasons I drank, threw The List Out when I could see that those reasons were not the Reason I got Drunk.


I have a Terminal illness, that I get a Daily Reprive with, by following the Suggestions, and Helping others that come in with Their Laundry List.


So this was a rather Long Welcome,  But Welcome to this Miracles in Progress 12 Step Forum.


My take on Drugs and Alcohol.......A Drug...... is a Drug.............is a Drug.  So many ways to leave the present moment.


Toni



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IF ANY OF THIS IS AMIDED AT ME.  I BELIEVE AA was started for alcohol and when we get on everything else we get away from our primary purpose to recover from Alcoholism. I just thought this was an ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS GROUP MESSAGE BOARD


Tradition 3----- "The only requirement for AA membership is a disire to stop drinking."


Tradition 5--"Each group has but one primary purpose--to carry it's message to the alcoholic who still suffers"


"Acid, meth, coffee, cigs"  Maybe chocalate milk?  Who is splitting hairs?


6. The idea that alcoholics, drug addicts, sex addicts, overeaters, smokers, etc, etc, should all just go to AA Meetings because a disease, is a disease, is a disease...was started by a treatment center that only had one van.


JUST MY OPINION



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Hi Again Ashley,


You probably wondered why I didnt refer to your Drug use.


When I went through a Recovery Home in the bay area, there was a woman that were coming of of a $500.00 a day heroin habit, 2 woman coming off of meth,  some coming off of cocaine, and about 50 per cent of us coming off of Alcohol.


So, I acknowledge that I may not be correct here, but I was only offering my ES&H. to you, when I drank, I would use any drug, lots of marijana, lots of Cocaine, any mood altering Pills. You name it, I did it.  I never used heroin, I was too frightened of it.


In my home group, later in my life, I saw the same thing, people that had a Preference for Pot, some Acid, some Pills,  I do not draw the distinction, for myself, because every program uses the 12 steps, as a way out of any addiction.


So, hope today is a better day for you, and like Amamda, I stay away from Mood Altering Music too. I might not drink over it, but I will slip into kind of an isolated mood if I listen.


Wishing you the best,


Toni



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Welcome to the board Ashley, I'm glad you are here. I just want to say that like Amanada said there are certain songs that I have to be careful when I happen to hear them. I don't ever play oldies that take me back, the triggers are just too strong for me and I know that. This was always hard when my husband and I were together because he still listens to all the good old music from the 60's, 70's , the acid music...even had our son send him some tapes, and he's in state ordered rehab...for felony DUI?


When I got clean and sober had to change a few things in my life, I don't regret it one bit.I hope you have a better day , and keep coming back.


(((Hugs)))


GammyRose



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