Honesty with ourselves and others gets us sober, but it is tolerance that keeps us that way. Experience shows that few alcoholics will long stay away from a group just because they don't like the way it is run. Most return and adjust themselves to whatever conditions they must. Some go to a different group, or form a new one. In other words, once an alcoholic fully realizes that he cannot get well alone, he will somehow find a way to get well in the company of others. It has been that way from the beginning of AA and will probably always be so. wagon
I could really identify with that reading. I was having a problem adjusting to meetings here, in a new area, everytime I went to a meeting everyone was (so it seemed) real pals with each other and it would only make me withdraw, and miss my old meetings, where i knew everyone.
Something had to give, I need AA Meeting like I need Dinner every night. So on Friday, I began opening up about how I was isolating, for the above reasons, and cutting myself off from the true meeting. It was really quite an experience., the minute I told the truth, I stop separating myself. I had a suspistion? (cannot spell anymore) that it was my disease raising its head, and I cannot AFFORD that. So I think I am going to keep talking about that everytime I feel myself shutting myself off.
Thanks, Rick's Post yesterday about ths Lambs, was what turned things around for me, I was the little lamb who kept looking for a new place to graze, when the grazing field is only ten minutes away, and I am going back there 5 fives a week to graze. The meeting there are only Mon-Fri. That will work.
Hope things are going well for you today, good to hear from you,
A big Hug, Toni (that looks like a little cow, but it is really a little lambie) TeHe
A big Hug, Toni (that looks like a little cow, but it is really a little lambie) TeHe