12 Days since my last drink. I just got to work after my meeting. They where talking about living in the moment. I didn't talk today because I'm still trying to figure out what that means. I thought I was living in the moment when I drank because I was only thinking of me. Didn't care who I hurt or what I did.
Now I realize that I was always thinking about the what if? Always really worrying about what comes next. Today I am going to try to just live in the moment but as I write this I'm already beginning to think I have a wedding to go to tonight. What if I drink? I'm going to slow down my mind and consentrate on getting just through the next hour and go from there.
I'll bring to the wedding my list of phone contacts and pray to God and Mom to help me to do the right thing.
Good morning Marie...12 days is fantastic. Living in the moment just takes practice...That takes time. Yesterday is history and tomorrow's a mystery.....All we have is today. Praying to God and Mom to do today what they would want you to do today works nicely....Have fun at the wedding....Use the phone if you need to....Leave if you are really uncomfortable....I think you are in good hands.
Hi Marie, Congratulations on reaching 12 days without drinking. I was always doing "what if" myself. I still catch myself doing that. I don't think I have reached the "living in the moment" quite yet, so if you are able to do that, good for you. I can learn from you. I do try to live just for today for the reason stepchild mentioned about yesterday is history and tomorrow's a mystery (love that wording, stepchild) and all we have is today. I declined a wedding invitation because I was worried I haven't reached the point where I could be around drinkers without wanting one myself. I admire people, especially people early in their sobriety, who have the strength to do that. After the wedding, I hope you will post and let me know how you did it because it sounds like you certainly will be able to from your posts.
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Aloha Debird...what I learned "living in the moment is" was getting away from "what iffing" and going with "what is". Reality and of course maintaining and strengthing that with not drinking. An old program buddy of mine once told me that he sweated going to a family birthday celebration because he had always drank with family and they knew what he drank and how much and what happened next. He worried and worried and feared and feared and didn't know what to do for weeks before the party...and then...after being crazy with "what iffing" her turned it over to his Higher Power and just let it go. He left it with it is what it is for now and when the time came he went to the family home. When he got there and walked up the steps the front door open up without him touching the door knob and there was his cousin standing with a knowing smile on his face and my friend Mike's traditional brew of choice. Mike relaxed and walked passed his cousin and said "No thanks I've had enough"!! He didn't have a clue where the words came from and wasn't thinking in that light at anytime. Doesn't it fit "No thanks I've had enough", to say when you've surrendered entirely and are done? Fits for me and I've recorded it in case I may have a future need. Good morning to you and now that you have 12 days...duplicate it tomorrow. ((((hugs))))
