I no longer refuse to do anything because I cannot do it to perfection. Many of us alcoholics use the excuse of not being able to do something perfectly to enable us to do nothing at all. We pretend to be perfectionists. We are good at telling people how a thing should be done, but when we come to the effort of doing it ourselves, we balk. We say to ourselves: "I might make a mistake so I'd better let the whole thing slide." In A.A. we set our goals high, but that does not prevent us from trying. The mere fact that we will never fully reach these goals does not prevent us from doing the best we can. Have I stopped hiding behind the smoke screen of perfectionism?
3#####ROSIE....for me "doing my best" is good enough...no matter the outcome anymore.....i did my best with this rescue doggie and it turned into a total disaster when she ran away.....a 12-13 yr. old doggie, out loose, who KNOWS where she is.....but not ONCE did i get on me about "oh you f***ed up this or that".....ALL along i said "i did my best...my fence is in good repair...i gave her love/affection...good food/ water.....nice home" i did my best and it just did not work out.....she did not want to stay......today i found her at the pound....they found her i guess at 9am, this am, and from her "ticket" on her gate, it looked like someone had found her and called the pound....they brought her in...and some 6 hours later, i show up, my HS, prompted me to go so i would have "closure" i went into the "lost dogs" section and there she was...lying there, hardly paying me ANY mind, and i just looked at her and said "ok, i know where you are...you are safe..taken care of....warm/ fed/ watered...god bless and good bye".......it was sad, but i turned around and WALKED AWAY!!!!! i was satisfied in my heart that i had DONE all i could do..i was UP to the task.....it didn't work out through NO bad action from me, and i was satisfied with me....i walked away from her, it was hard, but i did it, becuz i have enough grief on my plate now, i don't want to PURCHASE it.......i would go from victim to volunteer real fast if i had bailed her out...set myself up for ANOTHER frantic night looking for her.... so i said "forget it".....i did all i could do.........i know i am not perfect, i make mistakes, and as long as i know i did my best and tried???? i am ok.......
Meditation for the Day
"In the world ye shall have tribulation. But be of good cheer. I have overcome the world." Keep an undaunted spirit. Keep your spirit free and unconquered. You can be undefeated and untouched by failure and all its power, by letting your spirit overcome the world; rise above earth's turmoil into the secret chamber of perfect peace and confidence. When a challenge comes to you, remember you have God's help and nothing can wholly defeat you.Prayer for the DayI pray that I may have confidence and be of good cheer. I pray that I may not fear the power of failure.
#######ROSIE......my secret chamber is my higher self......i go to my room or soak in my tub and i cummunicate with my HS...i can release the negative energy off me and clease myself, and put in GOOD cause for GOOD effect......
