uh oh. It's the holidays. I'm having a hard time. Or is it everybody is having a hard time and it's affecting me? or is it that we're all having a hard time and affecting each other? I don't know, but it's hard. I want oblivion. I want to drink, sleep, something so I don't have to go through this. I guess I have to get to some meetings.
amanda
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I hear you Amanda, I'm going to an 8 pm meeting tonight, I'm sure we will discuss staying sober during the holidays tonight. I still like to read the AA "Living Sober" this time of year.It may be old but it has great shares.
And it really is up to us and our Higher Power cause we have no control over what others do.
aww.. thank you, rose , my recovery friend. well.. my son just called and let me know that he is alright.. that's a big relief. I went to the alanon chat room. There are always people there.. and here it is.. 2 hours later.. and I'm sober. a minute at a time .
love in recovery,
amanda
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Amanda, just hold on. I think the holidays are difficult for a lot people, not just us alkies. I, personally, am looking forward to Thanksgiving tomorrow, sober. It'll be my first!
Hang in there, girl, you're in my prayers.
Love and hugs
Doll
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Thank you all very much,,, for being here for me. My family is soooo dysfunctional. My son did call though and is alright, and that is a big relief. I feel much better today. I'm going to go to an NA marathon tomorrow, and I think I'll man the chat room here for some time also,,, just not sure which chat room,, prolly this one.
see yas later,
love in recovery,
amanda
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The Holidays can so often be very difficult. I'm fortunate this year to have some very cherished loved ones be with me, but such was not the case in other years past. I was extremely grateful during lonely stretches to have online access to great people who helped me get through the days--and even make me smile. Wonderful to see you'll be attending meetings and chatting online. I wish you only the best. Warmest Regards,
AMANDA>>>>>>>I want oblivion. I want to drink, sleep, something so I don't have to go through this. I guess I have to get to some meetings.
ROSIE>>>>>>oh my friend i can SOOO relate.....this is the suckiest time for folks who are alone!!! i live alone....my X and i split 5 yrs. ago....geeez same ole crap....doing stuff alone......i want to drink too....so instead i am doing my chants/ cleaning up my karma, and tapping into my Higher Self BIG TIME!!!! i am not alone when i am in my meditative state......i have the best from within me with me, and it gets me by.......(((((((amanda))))))))) stay strong , and yeah, meets are a GR8 idea....getting drunk, you feel good for a bit, than like crap the next day.....it is NOT worth it...besides it only postpones the pain......i would rather walk through it and be done with this crap............hugs, rosie
