I finally made it back to meetings, in spite of myself... 4 days now, and hope is returning. Trying not to get overwhelmed by the mess I made of my life in 10 weeks of drinking and using again and take it a bit at a time.
Excellent. Jump in with both feet, surround yourself with people in recovery & take it one hour, one minute one second at a time. Keep hitting meetings & keep letting the people in the rooms know where you're at.No mattter what don't pick up a drink.
My prayers are with you, as I'm sure all who have read your post here, & made contact with you in the rooms.
The love & concern may feel untrue to you now, but we have all been there.