Just got back from a family visit with my sister & her family. I went with my folks, Dad is a recovering A over 10 years, Mom, well, let’s just say Mom feels sorry for herself A LOT.
Well, after driving over an hour in the backseat with Mom & Dad in front (I felt like I was nine years old again). Only making left-hand turns the whole way…..lol.
Anyway, my sister & her husband drink excessively. They have three boys & the older ones are getting into trouble more often than not. They get a handle on it, but my nephews know how to pit then against each other & it makes for a lot of mayhem.
It’s pure alcoholic behavior & it drives me crazy! Everyone was so SELFISH it made me sick. Even the kids are learning this behavior. I will try to be there for them, as their aunt. I will let them know about this programs & others if they ever want to learn more….
I just needed to vent here. I got home & cried without really know why. I always thought it was me, but I realize now, that it’s just too much for anyone to absorb normally. I gotta let it go.
I lite up my candles, catching up on TV with my cat, & taking care of me.
I don’t want to drink, I’m just sick of this disease. It won’t stop feeding off the people I love, I hate it?
You hang in there. Sounds like even though it was rough, you're handling it. Good for you.
I know all too well about "dysfunctional" families. My parents are not alkies or addicts, they have their own diseases that there are no programs for. My mother's is the self centered, look at me, I'm always right - ism. And my father has my mother -ism! Always trying to make her believe she is the center of everything. Got a crack head for a sister, a neice that's headed down the same road, and a nephew that just got out of jail...... We all got em, hon...... AND my parents are coming to visit for a couple days next week, haven't seen them in almost 2 yrs....... They don't have a clue I'm in recovery, nor that I really need AA, my mother just thinks I always drank a bit too much and should just stop! Should be an interesting time for me........... I'll pray for you and yours, you pray for me and mine. Deal?
I have really been figuring out more and more lately, why we are reminded to take it "one day at a time". One day at a time is more than enough for any of us to handle, even the folks I know who aren't alkies.
Hang in there Christine, you too Doll.
I just offered a little prayer for your peace, serenity and sobriety.
Dakotabilly Dan, the old (& staying dry one day at a time) Hippie.
Always trying to make her believe she is the center of everything. Got a crack head for a sister, a neice that's headed down the same road, and a nephew that just got out of jail...... We all got em, hon...... AND my parents are coming to visit for a couple days next week, haven't seen them in almost 2 yrs....... They don't have a clue I'm in recovery, nor that I really need AA, my mother just thinks I always drank a bit too much and should just stop! Should be an interesting time for me........... I'll pray for you and yours, you pray for me and mine. Deal?