wendy i love this!!!!   i was so filled with self hate/ self sabotaging!!!!  i had a real battle "over writing" my self sabateur.....i mean the only way i could  stop/ cancel my abuser's values that he put on me was to make a tape cassette AND cd,   with affirmations  that i loved me/ accepted me/ honoured me AS i am......i had to play it night and day  30 to 40 hours. before i could see a change in my feelings about me.........i could forgive others  but not me....so sad, cause i was the little victim......( my incest aggressor father used to make me drink with him at 13 so he could more easily violate me)   i learned that drinking was a good **numbing tool*  i guess i hated me cause while he was hurting me, he would tell me over and over i was a  **failure, jerk, idiot,  no good for nothing,  etcetra*    so somewhere in my young life, i bought it!!!!!  he did this before he began assaulting me to  break me down, take away my boundaries, my choices......so i hated me!!!! i wanted to kill me!!!!  at 13 i drank an entire letre of  seagrams 7 to try and die!!!!!!   now that is all changed!!!!  i don't need to  get **zoned*  to feel good,   i go to meets/  nurture me/ work my program,   and listen to the TRUTH which is on my tapes and cd's  that i made in MY voice  to me!!!!!!!

thank you for this share, i really appreciated it/ you.....peace/ rosie