well when i came back this time around and wanted sobriety- not window shopping like i had done for years- my sponsor told me to write a list of all the things that i don't have that i am grateful for. and your post reminded me of it and just some things that i need to remember every day. at least for this drunk when i drink or do any other things my life is just altogether worse. so far thanks to my god of my understanding and faith in the program i havent seen fit to pick up a drink and i have been able to face so many things that i thought was going to kill me that i did at one time projected and drank over it and procrastinated. i truely understand so far that myself left on it's own- is insanity--because if the less painful way to go about things illuded me than i need not take my thoughts too seriously. for me to understand that is my coming to terms thing that i consider the greatest gift that the program has given me. god bless you all and have a great night.
ps-- life is not fair but you can make it as comfortable as you want it to be