One evening, I was alone, weary, and exhausted. I was in the midst of extensive traveling, disconnected from friends and family. I had flown home for the evening, but it seemed like nobody noticed. People were used to me being gone.
It was late at night, and I began arguing with God.
"I'm out there working hard. I'm lonely. I need to know someone cares. You've told me to tell you what I need and tonight, God, I particularly need the presence of male energy. I need a friend, someone I can trust to care about me in a nonsexual, nonexploitive way. I need to be held. Now, where are you?"
I lay down on the couch and closed my eyes. I was too tired to do anything but let go.
The telephone rang minutes later. It was a former colleague who had since become my friend. "Hey, kid," he said. "You sound really tired and needy. Stay right where you are. I'm going to drive out and give you a foot rub. It sounds exactly like what you need."
Half an hour later, he knocked on my door. He brought a small bottle of oil with him, and gently massaged my feet, gave me a hug, told me how much he cared about me, then left.
I smiled. I had received exactly what I asked for.
It is safe to trust God.
Today, I will remember God cares about what I need, especially if I do.
From The Language of Letting Go
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Early in my sobriety I had lost my job, and so I started my own landscaping company. Well in the beginning custimers were scarce. I was sittting one morning meditating needing work. About a minute later the phone rings, and guess what? Work!! As long as I keep my HP in the picture I know things are the way they are supposed to be.
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Don't wait for your ship to come in... Swim out to it!
I love to hear stories such as these! It reminds me that my HP is there for me and will provided exactly what I need! I just need to be willing and always be trusting!! Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
thanks for the reminder. I need to pray for work right now, as it has been slow. God wants us to work and will put the work in front of us if we ask for it. I view my HP as a great friend that is always around and listens to everything I say. I believe that my direct prayers "please give me this" aren't uslally answered as quickly as I would like, but when I casually say, "God I wish I could find this or that..." it happens very quickly because God doesn't feel as though I am demanding something from Him/Her.
