I just lost about 60 words because I hit the tab button. Thank God I can just start over. It wasn't so easy with relapse. I will get back to the subject at hand and try to get close to my original document.
In the begining you all told me that I am the most important person in the room. I think this might have gone to my head a little. The past couple days I have been a little selfish and self-centered. I have been getting a little frusrated because my roomates have not been doing what I want and they don't believe me when I say I know what is best for them. Ha Ha! The truth of the matter is taht I don't know what is best for them, the house, or let alone myself. The one who does is my HP. Today I know the best information that I have is what comes from the basic test, because it works and it has not changed since 1939.
I was in a meeting and I am lucky enough to know that when I am headed down the wrong road the first thing is that I recognize it and secondly I can talk to my sponser, another alcoholic, or bring it up in a meeting. That is what I did. I brought the topic up in a meeting. It was brought to my attention that: "Many of us had moral and philisophical convictions galore, but we could not live up to them even if we would have liked to. Neither could we reduce our self-centeredness much by wishing or trying on our own power. We had to have God's help. This is the how and why of it. First of all we had to quit playing God. It didn't work. Next we decided that hereafter in this drama of life, God was going to be our Director. He is the Principal; we are his agents. He is the father and we our His children. Most good ideas are simple, and this concept was the keystone of the new and triumphant arch through which we passed to freedom." Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 62
If I bring God into the picture I will see that I can relax and just work on mysobriety He will take care of the rest. Thank you for letting me share cause it' not all about me!
Hi Mike..... Absolutely it's not all about YOU.....CAUSE... It's all about ME! j/k
I'm still learning how to not beat myself up over that one! But I've come to the realization it's what this alcoholic does sometimes. Best thing I can do is get my butt to a meeting, call my sponsor (or another AA), read the BB, pray and/or all of the above. Getting me outta my own head is always the answer.
Thanks for sharing. You've helped me today.
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Thanks Mike, I always have to remember I suffer from Alcohol-ism, not alcohol-wasm. The thought that keeps me headed in the right direction is " progress, not perfection". As long as I feel I am making progress I am headed in a good direction. Getting to a meeting or talking to my sponcer always (eventually) get me out of the I, self, and me vacume.
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Thaks for sharing Mike... I think in the beginning it is just about us! We have to focus on getting us straight and then thats when service work kicks in!
I have shared many times with my sponser and its funny when she tells me, "Thanks, you dont know how much you've helped me!" (probably because she's glad she's not as messed up as me!!) Lani
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j/k