Must have been dreaming about giving a lead or something....
Im wondering why I am here in AA..... Why did God chose ME to be an alcoholic? At times I get pissed and think poor me. Why cant I be normal? Well, today for some reaon, Im thinking, WHY DID God choose me to be an alcoholic and be in such a wonderful fellowship! Honestly, how did I get so lucky!?
If not for AA , I wouldnt have the trust and love of my kids and family. I could have lost them to the dang bottle! I wouldnt have new friends that mean so much to me and who share their E,S,H with me on a daily basis! I wouldnt have a carreer, car. home, any of that! All's I would have is the FEAR of living each day! Sure some days Im not happy about all this crazy stuff! But today Im just darn glad God picked little ole me to help change, make a difference and be happy, joyous and Free!!!
I heard an awesome female lead last night and it made me thankful that I never had to go where she did! I was blessed enough to just get to the edge, look down and say <"what the hell am I doing!!" Im better than this! My family deserves better than this! My HP was looking out for me from day one and knew just what he was doing! Otherwise, I have to say...I would not be thankful for all that I have! Thanks for letting me share!!! Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
